I'm tired. And a little bit hungry... meh. I was up again last night to finnish this picture of my dad. To see is i could sell it. I need to start my career - to pay for my flat. At first my drawing was a hobby, i love to pursue - but now as a neccesity i fear exhaustion. Now I do not feel tired - but I have only just started the lonly road. I have separated myself from my social life, once again untill i return dead or alive and wealthy. My first commision came in. A regular A2 pencil landscape of my dad's friend and family. £100. For my first commission that is a fine addition. I am told i could rise the price, but there is no need. most of all, it pays for advertisement in itself. I must endure. I fear the sweat. But I shall not stop, untill i reach acme. Of which i shall rest, and them move higher.

The sudden begginging of my understanding will once again crash into the maze wall of reality. I belive in perfect communication with any media. I belive in the possability of no interpretations - unless intended. As an artist, i do this with my work - or at least try. I Dont like the idea of researching the fonds of music. People DO genius, not are. Which is why I never look into bands. But dont get me wrong, I love alot of music, listen to the whole albums how they were mean't to be recorded. Some artists dont use one song for one understanding - the album can be a genre, mixed into eachother, e.g the beatles. Genius, i belive is not only having a clear bridge of communication between the writer/s to the reader/s, but also a new idea or direction.