Going to my cousin's house for the big dinner......

Funny how things were in my life just a bit more than a year ago. This last year has been such a trip. I met the most wonderful girl in the world then screwed it all up. Maybe I'll get another chance someday. Yesterday she told me she'd started dating another guy. It hurts so bad I can almost taste it. I don't know what's going to become of my life. I know it's never going to be the same. I know it's all going to be ok, but I don't know for sure if I believe it. This is pathetic. I'm going to do some work now.