drunk again, fuck

in an innocent way I thought it could stay with us both on the ground, with us fooling around. lets just stay on the ground, lets stay fooling around on the ground.

I'm so exhausted This morning i was woken up by my phone at least three times, and so i gave up and got up I feel like i could go to bed and sleep for days, but most likely i will go drinking again tonight. Honestly i need some goddamn self-control. About an hour ago some guy called me, he knew me but i dont remember him at all. He said he met me last weekend. He asked if i wanted to do something tonight. The weird thing was that the people he wanted me to hang out with were the people i already had plans with. He told me he would call me back, but it will be so awkward going out with them tonight..really though, i dont know how he even has my number. So i have massive amount of homework.. boo it sucks. Not the kind of homework i can avoid either.

its 4:30 am, im so drunk why the fuck am i on the computer? really, i should learn people names

So I made a deal with one of my life long friends that i wouldnt drink for a month... it started as a joke, but when she didnt believe i could pull it off we made a bet on it. That was about two weeks ago and since then I have been drunk or drinking about four or five times. I should stop. I really should. I got my drivers license though! such freedom! The other day I test drove a Toyota camry. It is sort of old, but it great condition because it hasnt been driven much. The price is good for my limited funds though. Its such a good deal though because its right hand drive... meaning the wheel is on the passenger side. Driving it was sort of fun though. So the guy I thought i was completly over started talking to me again. fuck. he asked if he could ask me out sometime, and said he thinks about me a lot. Men are more complicated than women! or maybe just the males in my life. who knows. Today someone sent me a sweet email.

my future is looking bright, but im fucked up. life is going well though, school is good, friends are good, work is good, and i even hang out with the guy i like every weekend. my life is on the right track. but man im going to be a fuck up. really fucked up. so there is this new alternative rock station..dont get me wrong, i enjoy the music. the station plays a great deal of the music i like, and was unique to me. now its being played for all the mindless masses out there. so frustrating!