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  • December 15, 2006

    by jellybones on December 15, 2006
    Not trying to sound like a whiney, confused average teenager, but.. holy fuck guys are confusing So there was this guy who I've have this thing with for a while. well actually it started in grade 10, he was in my social class and we had some mutual friend. He told my friend that he liked me, but other than that nothing happend. we were just friends. Next year at the beginning of grade eleven we actually started talking all the time and I kind of liked him. He is the most charming guy ever and is so easy to talk to. He always tried to make plans with me, but for some reason i would always cancel them by making up lame excuses. I guess i was just nervous hanging out with him one on one. Anyways one night over the summer i ended up sneaking out and went a slept over at his house cause his mom was out of town.. So we definately hooked up. After we still talked all the time though. Hooking up didnt make things akward. He told me that he had liked me since grade eleven. Later in the summer my friend and i both went and stayed at his house again. His mom was out of town and two other guys stayed over too.. so we hooked up again. Things went on like normal and we still talked all the time. I never really told anyone about us though. Anyways, of course his mom went away again and i slept over again. I actually really liked him, and i dont usually like that many guys.. But the last time i slept over i got caught, it was four in the morning and my mom realized that i was gone it was shitty. Later once grade 12 had started i was having a sleepover with my friend lisa, and we were talking about getting caught sneaking out and junk like that, so i told her about that time at that guys house... and well it turns out that he had been trying to hook up with her as well.. and this is a really long story, but we were pissed off and bitchy so we went to his house. we acted like we had no idea that he had been trying to get with both of us all summer, but we made it so akward for him. It was our little form of revenge i guess, and then after that we both just stopped talking to him. After a while though he started talking to me again but it wasnt the same.. and I was sad because i still liked him, but i had screwed it up with the whole lisa scenario. But after school had been going for a while, we stopped talking again, and again it was me who stopped talking to him and so he stopped making an effort. Months went by and we never spoke. I missed him, but i didnt know how to talk to him, to make things go back to how they used to be with us. But then, not long ago he randomly started talking to me, telling me how much he missed me. I told him that i missed him too, but i didnt pour my heart out or anything. It was only on msn he was talking to me though and i was getting off the computer. the next day i talked to him on msn, and it was just an average conversation. He didnt throw in any cute compliments or anything though. Since then he hasnt talked to me again.. at school he doesnt come say hey, and when i sign on msn he doesnt talk to me. So why did he tell me he misses me so much?! why did he get my hopes up thinking we could be like we used to?!?
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  • December 07, 2006

    by jellybones on December 07, 2006
    come on kid, look what you did "are you smoking crack or something?"
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  • December 06, 2006

    by jellybones on December 06, 2006
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  • December 03, 2006

    by jellybones on December 03, 2006
    Today was my last day at work i have worked there for almost two years because i work in a kitchen i work mostly with guys and i love them all they kept giving me random hugs all day at one point i admitted i would miss working there and they all stopped what they were doing and said "AWWWWWWWWW" it was funny cause they are all these big tough guys they were convinced i would cry before i left if they kept giving me hugs and reminding me how i would never be back there again ..they were right i did cry i will honestly miss them all so much p.s i wont miss them as much as i miss my brother
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  • December 01, 2006

    by jellybones on December 01, 2006
    fuckk I am so behind in school of course it is my own fault though i am such a procrastonator... when i screw up my entire life i will have no one to blame but myself Maybe now that i have a life goal it will be easier to work.. at least i will be working towards something i really want to do p.s i get to see my brother tonight
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