I can't believe it. I can't believe I said I had a crush on him. I can't believe I sort of do :(. Except I don't! XxX winterwoods

I'm always depressed after I've gotten drunk. Last friday... I had such a good time then, but now I'm kind of very embarrased and ashamed and afraid to go to school tomorrow. I'm a shy, silent girl at school, don't like attention and stuff. When I'm drunk though, I'm outgoing, noisy, I like to tell secrets, I like to hug everybody who's around, and fall asleep on someone's lap. :S I'm definitly not going to school tomorrow :(. And I'm never going to drink again. XxX winterwoods

I'm celebrating my birthday today, for family :). 'Cause, I'm turning 17 next thursday! I already got a present from my parents, it's a really cool guitar, I love it! Now I only need to find someone who's willing to teach me how to play it. Tomorrow more ballroom dancing, gah. That's it! XxX winterwoods

The invitation said the men had to ask the women to the christmas ball. Lol. Like I ever listen :p. I asked this guy, he's just a friend so I thought, why not? But I really can't dance... (you know, I think it's called ballroom dancing, isn't it?) We practised last thursday and it was ... well, er, akward. I really can't dance :p. But we're going to practise again this monday, so... I'm gonna try my best and that's all I can do. er, yeah I'm also getting really annoyed by this guy. Mister co-director of the schoolplay, you can't direct a play when you're never there! XxX winterwoods

I HATE CHRISTMAS BALLS. there's one organised by the christmas committee at my school. It's just for sixth years, because it's our last year at high school. Well, it's a ball, so you have to wear fancy clothing (I bought some stupid black dress and a pair of black gloves to go with it, now I only need a new pair of shoes, pumps probably). And that's not even the worst part, I can survive one evening in a dress (but no more than one) but no, you have to come in couples, and if you do come in couples you have to do the opening dance. It's ah, I don't know the word in english. You know, the old kind of dancing, like the waltz and stuff. Well, you have to practise that first and then take part in the opening dance. And it's not just a dance, it's a competition as well. And the best looking, best dancing couple gets to call themselves King and Queen. I mean GOD, I don't live in America, why do have an american prom! I don't like proms, if I did, I would move to America. And the men have to ask the women, so I'm guessing I won't get asked at all. No wait, that's not true, this guy asked me today, but I really can't stand him. So correction: I'll only get asked by losers. I'm angry, yes. XxX winterwoods