helllo. school. would you like to hear about it? yeah well turns out, that my pod isnt all that bad. i have people i LOVE !! brandon. nick. chris. [nerds?]. also known as my friends. yes i love them. ha. classes can be hard, but thats what this is all about. enough about that now. okay so mike. dating? yes sir. but why is it that when somehting strtas up between us again, he does something so dumb, that he knows it will vreate conficit. i think you know what i am talking about. ryan? baseball? yea. i remember today i was talking with mike talking [not too nicely, may i add]. but he threw hie pen across the hall, and looked the other way in anger. i knew he must have made a mistake. and i couldnt tell if he was really torn up, or what. ill know whats up in a little. but for now, we'll work it out. everything is good right now, some new freinds. JOSH !! DJ !! and i wanna get to know this kid dylan. totalll cuttiiie =]]. ha. thats the next mission. last song heard: so i thought. artist: flyleaf [AHH best song !!!] xx.

hello. ummm tomorrow is school. NOOOO. ahh i dont want summer to end. it was amazingggg. dude today mike came overr. umm yeah that was interesting. maybe it will lead to something good, or to something bad. idk it was good for us. becuase i no we both wanted to do more, but its like awkward. but it was okay. i mean i was happy, and i wasnt the one telling him to stop. so yeah. wow last night was dumb. i mean not dumb, but ryan and everything? i mean wow this kid is seriously obsessed, and i cant do anything about it. i cant tell him to go away, and i cant like go make out with him, what the fuck am i supposed to do? whatever, he can go fuck stephanie. i couldnt tell if i was jealous, or mad. but why do i need to be jealoous? i dont care, he can bang susan farbacke for all i care. but i dont think that him and the whale are a wise pair lol. well yeah i am just waiting for carly aka SEXY BITCH to get here. haha. i guess i will write laterr. maybe about school or something. [ eww. ] last song heard: lights and sounds artist: yellowcard. xx.

i'm sitting here. and i'm thinking. while a song is playing. i am here onmy bed and thoughts are running across my head. its so hard to ever capture a feeling, but somtimes when you try to write it down, it helps. 8th grade will start. and i want it to be different. but i want it to be the same. i feel like i am going to lose so many people on this jounrney. i dont want to lose my old freidns, but how am i going to keep them? how am i going to be able to keep myself afloat? i hae the worst teahers...and everytime i find a way to do something so dumb, that i get in trouble for it. maybe this year, i can grow up..and learn that high school will be different, get my act together, and learn that i have to be mature in a classroom situation. i dont want to losr my friends. carly isnt in my pod, and she has people i would want to become better friedns with. but i know that when i get to school, evetything will plot out like it should, i am going to see one person, and say "wow, i forgot how many good times we had! and i am so happy that they are in my pod." i was online today and mike IMed me, and said i have tech with you. and i looked at my schedule, and was like...wow tech is the last explore of the year. what will me and mike be like? i think about how much i grew last year and i cant imagine how much i will grow this year as well. i hope that i can stay the same, but change for the better. i dont want summer to end. but i want to see evryone again. i just want to stay out of drama, and dumb shit...becuase thats what gets me lost in this school. i just want to try to stay alfoat...and be happy. lif shouldnt be all that difficualt at the age of 13. stay chill. becuase it will all just get harder. cherish the time u have as a kid...becuase when it comes down to it, i am a kid. and i like it that way. talk to you later. last song played: we never change artist: coldplay [ haha. nice we never change. ] xx.

hey. okay i havent written in a while, but its not like anything had really happened. mike is "back" again. i woner why this bot cant just seem to leave my life. i mean everytme you think that he may leave, there he is, its like hes waiting for me to go back to him. maybe he knows tht i will always have a place for him in my heart, or maybe he knows that we work so well together, or maybe he knows that im the one who makes him happy, or vise versa. pods. wow everyone is freaing out. mine is okay, i mean what am i going to do about it now? all i know is that its school, and yet this may sound nerdy, but it is about work, and academics, and maybe i can focus this year, and try like i always wanted to, i want to prove to myself that i can do that. well i think that life is going pretty good right now. im rlly happy, and just glad the way everyhting is working out. next year has to be smoother, no drama, no trouble making. i still hate it. getting yelled at is ust as scary as getting 5 minutes. lmao. last song heard: change your mind artist: all american rejects. xx.