You're a beautiful kid with a wide, bright smile With your untamable hair and unconventional style You shine brightest in the night When you're young and alive Painting falling stars to replace the city lights Refusing to accept the scientific laws you call lies We don't ever have to shut our heavy eyes We can clap along to home made songs And scream together the home made lines We used to use to get ourselves by But now I have these lovely tunes Just like you, they sound magic and new You're causing my smiles few Keeping me from crying, too You're a brilliant kid with a wide, bright mind With your untamable dreams and unconventional rhymes You shine brightest with your classics When you're thoughtful and tragic Chasing every rainbow just after the storm Refusing to let your heart be swayed or torn We don't ever have to open our heavy lips We can walk down the sidewalk to town And laugh together like the little kids We used to be, full of happiness But now I have colorful photographs Just like you, they make me laugh You're the best friend I could have Keeping the skies from turning black You're a nice kid with a wide, bright soul With your untamable heart and unconventional words You shine brightest in the sun When you're happy and so in love Swimming in the clouds so high over the earth Refusing to hear the extent of your worth We don't ever have to hide our heavy hearts We can sit alone in your empty home And talk together about our lives so far We used to wish on the early stars But now I have late rides in your car Just like you, they do their part You're healing my bruises and scars Keeping safe my lonely heart I'm a naive kid with a wide, bright hope With my untamable tongue and unconventional clothes I shine brightest next to you When I smile and tell the truth Conversing with myself in verse and rhyme Refusing to let you realize I'm not worth your time We don't ever have to tell our heavy pasts We can lay our heads against your unmade bed And stare together till we can see through these masks We used to be shy, but we got over that Because now I have this kid next to me Just like you, he's seventeen With a wide, bright smile, mind, and soul Keeping my life in cruise control

You're shaking and it's only a southern summer in July And I'm breaking with every muttered aside and shuddered sigh Because you're making this so much harder than it needs to be Swearing you could never bring yourself to hurt me But what kills me more than anything Is that there's inches between our jeans And I'd like the friction to permit these Dizzy daydreams I've been pleading Would come true Fix a smile as you fit me against you Whisper every sunset you've grown to accept As a miracle as beautiful as you are to me We'll get torn by the waves as we stand by the sea Not wading but waiting on our east coast beach Where have you been these past couple of days? Let's agree to disagree, but you're still so perfect to me And perception is reality, at least that's what you always say Let's run away to Italy So far from these small towns and big cities We'll hide in a shack on the beach with the prettiest sunrise And we'll never turn back or let worries color our skies The sad country hills will match the green in your eyes Chasing through vineyards and orchards The dreams we could never afford Back home in our old lonely lives We'll stare at the stars as they brighten our hearts Lying on a rooftop, trying to stop making it so hard To learn to read the lies they put in our heads They always claimed we'd get nowhere at best And anywhere with you I may still be a mess But at least I'm somewhere else than the past And it won't ever matter if we leave tonight Forget the way home, forget what you know and what's right Because at midnight we'll be gone to end up in the morning Across the Atlantic, you with me, and we can't Stop smiling We won't give a warning They should already know why we can't stay I just hope you'll come along if I can escape And we can run away to Italy So close to getting those small hopes and big dreams We'll laugh as we embrace on the beach with the prettiest sunset And we'll never retrace or let our skies be colored with regrets The sad village sidewalks will match the gold in your eyes Chasing through valleys and meadows of fireflies The wishes we couldn't pressure stars with will be reborn Too many city lights scaring them off back home In their old lonely skies Here's to our new transatlantic lives

I say you're ridiculous, you say I'm beautiful You swear I'm perfect, I insist you're a miracle, Invincible, untamable, and everything in between I never could tell the difference between flattery and honesty But trust me when I tell you, you're everything to me And it's not just your aesthetics, although they strike me kindly In that handsome head of yours, are a thousand unopened doors That you keep locked up to the general public But I'm walking your hallway with a single key Fitting it in to every lock I see Hoping to finally figure out the mystery That you will forever be to me One thing's for sure, although I have my doubts You want me and need me in excessive amounts But however strongly you feel, it will never be enough To tower over the emotion I've had for you for months Call it obsession, call it infatuation, call it love It's the first decision in my life that I'm so sure of I'd promise on and to my grave, or even if I live eternally That I won't ever get over you, you mean so much to me It's ineffable, inescapable, but unconditionally true You're perfect for me, and you say I'm perfect for you And as far as I can tell, there's no reason why This won't last as long as the sky is wide Or at least until you bore of me Move on, move out, to bigger, better things I'd completely understand, in fact I'm bracing for impact Knowing that will someday even soon come to happen But for the moment, I'm in bliss Knowing that this, is all I think it is All I'd dream it could be You're all I dream, all I think, all I see All I bleed, all I breathe All I need

I asked the masses at large If they'd take death free of charge Over a lifetime of debt to be living so hard Of course, they all say they'd take life any day But I can see through their facades Because I know, if any one does, That what you have isn't what you want And what you want isn't what you have Isn't it just too bad? But you can't show too much pity For country bird who never heard sounds of the city When the urban areas are filled like a cup With empty promises for success and love And it's just so tough, to ever measure up Besides, the poor girl's just too content Knowing the world as bound by her picket fence So leave her be, in her ignorance I followed a sign from a mentor of mine, She said she'd always see me through Swore I'd get somewhere in life That she believed in everything I do She gave me a gift, to continue with this Dream she had for me, the way she hoped I'd live It was a set of blending sticks For all the useless pencil drawings I did Instead of the assignments and classwork she'd give She was always so perceptive And she had so much kindness But two weeks after she'd offered this set As my Christmas present She was in her bathroom, readying the bath tub When her heart, in its frenetic faults, did stop And just like her father before her She struggled against the attack that bore Death in its hand and a smirk on its lips And the Devil himself, he cursed at this He knew she'd grow those wings too quick But didn't want her dead just yet Everyone knew it wasn't a fair bet But God knows, it was genetic And I remembered this woman And all the confidence she'd woven In to my wounded heart And I didn't cry at her funeral, I bawled And I shut my door To try and block out the screams Flooding rooms galore But not from mine or me He thinks he's right, she thinks he's mean He refuses to listen, she won't stop speaking There's never room for happiness When everyone's filling their marriages With arguments of senselessness Nonsense that means nothing I never understood a bit of it Even as a kid In the earlier years, it was even worse My brothers both noticed it first The bruises appeared, aptly so From their knees to their elbows But no one could touch me Because I would fight right back I tried to make them see But they were just too mad To bother with listening And they were just too sad To throw anything but insults in my direction I never took what he said in stock But it left a mighty infection That swells when he tries to make me stop Being so much like the person he's not And making my own decisions I'm not marching his missions Or carrying his messages Not anymore, but sadly We used to be less than even this Until I realized they can't do a thing to me When they've already taken everything And might soon even take my hearing Seeing as they won't stop screaming Outside my tightly shut door I lay my head down on the floor And pretend I'm somewhere far and safe My mental, fragile, loyal escape I fell hard for a man Two years older than I I shouldn't call him anything less Than perfect to even the naked eye And I know he has flaws, I've witnessed them myself But, see, what I saw I would never call out As tainted by wrong or sin It's simply he and him And who can blame a man For being who he is? And all the gold in his eyes Breaks open the heart in my chest It spills down my cheeks like butterflies When my lips are on his He drives me to madness He fucks up my life I've never cried with such sadness In so many nights But the pleasure overrides All the pain that I hide And how could I dare complain When we're perfect for each other in every way? He's for me, I'm for him And in my book, that's a win-win situation We like to kiss, do so most of the time And Good God, the boy tastes just like sunshine And we can't really help it But whenever we're alone We get carried away, me and him And end up out of our minds and clothes But damn, the boy looks beautiful in his skin That glorious face, those muscles and bones I'd be lying if I said I don't need him However independent I honestly am And sure, I could breathe Without him close to me But I don't really need That sadness or anxiety And I really would hate All the boring, useless days That would ensue, dreary and dull, If I couldn't hold On to him as he wished I would do so much more And he's all that I miss And all I adore Yes, I adore the very man Who held my face in his hands Said goodbye in a driveway I'll see him soon again

White cotton ripped, you've duly stripped Me of my words as well as my clothes I hold my breath, your arms grasp my back With a force that I know Means you won't let me go Without resounding impact I want you every second of every day And every thing else is just a blur and a waste Because all I can ever do Is think of you It's driving me mad, as if it hasn't already Your eyes burning red, my hands won't steady Our selfish records are reset Don't say yes if you'll regret I won't answer when you ask how I am You hurt me unconsciously, constantly But I won't waste my lips On words that will taint this I won't break if you let me bend Your mouth traces my veins From my temples to my toes My hair to my heels My scalp to my soles I can't explain how it feels But you always leave me full You bruise my flesh with every touch I'm a crude mess, needing you too much Your teeth break skin, taste my blood I let you in, and your pulse runs Shakespeare did get one thing right - So much sweet sorrow in goodbye And I pull you against me too tight But I know you'll be in my dreams tonight

You left me on your driveway, a sad smile on your face I couldn't stop crying, even though I know tears never help But it's my best I've been trying And still I've come up short, and been shut out I try not to think about what goodbye really means Knowing I'll be seeing you anyway in my dreams But you say "see you later" like it's not the end of the world And then "good night", but it becomes such a stupid word Since it's three in the morning, mid August chill came without warning You know the skies don't look as bright without you to light them and guide the sun And my bed doesn't feel as nice without your skin on mine to warm me up I still have your smell on my clothes, and your taste on my tongue There's your grass stains on my jeans, and I can't bring myself to wash them Our meadow's now such a sad place to go, the grass sways as the wind blows The beach is filled with every face I know, but I'm alone there these days I suppose that's how it goes Because I can't find the letter that I wrote Saying sorry and I just wish you'd come home I miss every single thing about the way that we were And who you are, and how we'd burn I'm on my deathbed, you're moving on to things that matter Can't forget what you said, how you promised me forever But it just seems to last so long, eternity without you seems so wrong Just like this city is so empty without you to make me Who I used to like to be But I hate looking in the mirror, knowing the person staring back Is your small town friend who fell without hesitation or regret And I thought that I could be enough to make you want to stay I was so selfish, now I see that love can't stop the world these days But maybe it'll pause time for an hour, so you can return and reencounter The midnights and the things that felt right Like my hand in yours and your eyes on me Your locked door, and my warm sheets Our bodies entangled the floor, our synced and sacred heart beats I thought I was gonna die, lying with you every night Seeing as nothing I ever want or need plays out for me just right And my breathing just won't ever be fine, if you're by my side But I'd rather die in your arms, than live never again feeling at home Like I do only when you hold me too tight I need your mouth on mine, moving down my neck and jaw line Your hands on my thighs, your stare searing my eyes You pulling off my shirt, crushing me down in the dirt With every kiss and every smile and every word I need you to make me move, you're all I hung on to long enough to lose And really have you mean something to me More than anyone or anything You changed my life with one stolen glance A novel, a long drive, a bedroom, a last chance That became more dangerous than war It's an arms race, you holding me on the shore Waves come and crash and tear me down I wish you'd come back, 'cause you'd never let me drown You always did protect me, I'm sorry I was so weak I'm not the same kid I was when you first met me You've become the only thing I have to wish for or on Because the stars aren't shining without you to light them And my bed frame's binding without you to untie me And build up my dreams, you're the only hope I still keep All the potential that they saw, was just pieces of you I'd thought I could steal for myself, but you're no novelty on a shelf You're the miracle every one prays Faith will send them And I was so stupid to let you go, but I don't believe in Heaven I swore I wouldn't break, but you were all that was keeping me together For God's sake, you were the first one to say forever But I can't find the letter that I wrote Saying sorry and I just wish you'd come home I miss every single thing about the way that we were And who you are, and how we'd burn I'm on my deathbed, you're moving on to things that matter Can't forget what you said, how you promised me forever But it just seems to last so long, eternity without you seems so wrong Just like this city is so empty without you to make me Feel like I was all you'd see You've fucked up my life more than anyone ever has But I can't really care, seeing as I want you, need you, love you, breathe you so much it burns I always end up back at you, can't escape that But you always leave me bleeding, needing more It's not like you haven't given me more than I have asked for It's just that you're the greatest worst thing I've ever adored And you're so perfect in every way And I'm conscious of it every day You're beautiful, and I'm a mess Dirty angel fell for this demon in a dress Got me wondering how you could want me But I'd rather know just what would make you stay I have so much I still want to say But I can't find the letter that I wrote Saying sorry and I just wish you'd come home I miss every single thing about the way that we were And who you are, and how we'd burn I'm on my deathbed, you're moving on to things that matter Can't forget what you said, how you promised me forever But it just seems to last so long, eternity without you seems so wrong Just like this city is so empty without you to make me For once alive and real and happy I'm screaming towards the sky once more My anger builds up and brims me full Knowing I failed to keep you here a moment longer Makes it that much worse, makes me that much stronger I'm not as weak as when you left But I've got so much less Of me to give away anymore I guess it's a good thing you stole my heart before Else you'd come back to an empty kid With no destination or ambition All I ever wanted and all I still look forward to Is a few more hours with me all over you I miss how it was before you drove away Before I'd stay up late and cry at the end of every day Still sing our favourite song all night long, reminders of us together But no melody or symphony or anything can make this better I wake up to the rain, a thunderstorm outside these walls I pray it'll wash me away, but the sky just wants to fall And it makes sense, since it's all I'd ever do The world's just catching up to the chaos I was around you I wouldn't take back any time or any word I'd take you over everything else in this world That's been ripped apart and ripped up since you've gone And in the past month, I've grown up so much But I'm still just too young And it's days like these I wonder why you'd bother revisiting I'm such a wreck, a tragic mess, who'd want to come back to me? But we both know I can't stop wishing that you would I'll never get over you, might as well admit I never could You're enjoying life, I'm trying hard to But it was so much easier to do When it involved and revolved around you Whatever happened to us being best friends I thought that meant always and ever I'll be thinking about you endlessly again Breaking my own heart, for want of better For want of your beautiful sunrise eyes to keep me alive, keep me in line And keep these skies from coming down on me tonight Because I can't find the letter that I wrote Saying sorry and I just wish you'd come home I miss every single thing about the way that we were And who you are, and how we'd burn I'm on my deathbed, you're moving on to things that matter Can't forget what you said, how you promised me forever But it just seems to last so long, eternity without you seems so wrong Just like this city is so empty without you to make me The person I know I should be I need your mouth against mine, moving from my knees to my collar bone Your legs between my thighs, your eyes watching me burn You pulling off my skirt, crushing me never hurt With every moan and every laugh, every unsaid word I need to make you shake, you to make me move I can't pretend not to break, you're all I hung on to long enough to lose And really have you mean something to me More than anyone or anything Just like it always was What we took advantage of It was the summer of Us So young, so in love You changed my life with one stolen glance A field, a gift, a favourite song, a lost dance A thunderstorm, a talk, a steady stance A staircase, a driveway, a winter/summer romance That became more dangerous than war I think you're winning, losing me here on our shore Waves come and crash and tear me down I wish you'd come back, 'cause you'd never let me drown Just know that you are all I ever wanted and all I still look forward to