So, I can't write this anywhere else, or someone I don't want will see it. And I suppose it shouldn't be "this," but "these things" because there are, in fact, several items I need to address. I think I'm falling in love with Andrew, which sucks for oh, so many reasons. He's (currently) in love with one of my good friends, and she's contemplating loving him back. I told him several years ago that he had no chance with me (I know- I was young, and very stupid). He could never love me back, because I don't look like his ideal girl. And the absolute worst part is that he's perfect for me, and vice versa. So much of who we are is compatible, and I don't understand how he can't see that. I've thought this for years, ever since we built that stupid eagle out of giant Legos in kindergarten. But you know, I think I'll have to be content with being his friend. If I try to talk to him about this, I'll lose him. I'd rather have some of him than none at all. Dustin. God, he gives me so much trouble in one way or the other. After all that crap he put me through, I told him everything, and we were okay. We were friends, and I didn't want anything more than that. Then, in his usual Dustin-way, he royally screwed things up again. So I gave him the silent treatment for two weeks. Because I'm awful at holding grudges, I tried to talk to him again. You can guess how well that worked out. It's since been more than a month since we've spoken. I threw out the olive branch, but I don't think he's going to take it. Asshole. The whole thing is making me feel like it's all my fault, when it most assuredly is not. He let ME down, when I've been there for him all along. Yeah, well, screw him. If I see him, I don't know if I'll be able to restrain myself from punching him. Jerk. Uhhh.. what else? Actually, that's about it. I just needed to get that stuff off my chest. So, thank you for reading, and I hope you have a lovely day.