SHIT! nearly deleted all my entries then..whoopsie :l so...life is probably EXACTLY the same as it was b4... tho i dont no if im in love anymre...its so confusin ='( and the boy that i liked n thort fancied me has gone and got himself a fucking girlfriend!!!!!!!!!! wot a bastard......well i couldntve stopped him that wudve been stoopid WOULDNT IT!!!! anywhoo.... i got an A!!!!!!!!!! im so proud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in ma art hmwk anywhoo im still thinking about those jimmy choos ;) toodles all, im in a happy mood agen!!!!!!!!!!!! xD

I CHIME IN, HAVENT YOU PEOPLE EVER HEARD OF, CLOSING THE GODDAMN DOOR NO! yeh....had a hyper moment there...im hyper on jelly beanz but we wont go in2 that.... im having MEGA mood swings at the mo so........yeh bdw im not pregnant :I so....iv got a LOADA coursework to do, im in love (YEH STILL) why am i in love?ah duno.....................................HES FUCKING ADORABLE!!!!!!!!!!! thats y xD woa now im feeling happy............damn those mood swings! mab i shud hav a coffee...seen as im addicted, well not ADDICTED i just love starbucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah *sigh* i noticed people always write lodsa DEEP, DEEP stuff in these journals...and mine is like, a loada shit!!! well journals arent ment 2 b read so hah,.....sept these are read...nvm now im moody agen.....great :I so wot shall i talk about? hmmm? shall i talk about my love? no i wont bore you... JIMMY CHOOS!!! OMFG I WANT SOME JIMMY CHOOS SO BADLY ID KILL FOR SOME JIMMY CHOOS...AH!! wers a 14 yr old girl gna get some fucking jimmy choos from??!?!? if ne1 knows plz email me xD

uh, just so u no...the dates and times on this journal things are completely wrong....

rite... i hate my life ..oo! xept 4 my guitar...i would DIE if i dint hav my guitar.....so much stuff has been goin on tho that i havnt had enuf time 2 play it...course work etc etc etc...thers also this guy (lets call him A) hmm well, i realy like him...as a frend...but i no he wants more n if i went out with him i KNOW id keep thinking about the other guy(lets call him B..lmao so sad ano) that im in love with...doesnt make sense does it? well,.. thats life but ther u go so i reali like A...but im in love with B...n i think A is gna ask me out...but if i sed yeh then i know thatd b wrong...cos im in love with B,...but B has a girlfriend already, i told B that i loved him n he sed it back but i KNOW he meant it in a friendly way, if only he knew... whats a girl to do?!?!?!?!?!?!!??!!?!? ooh! brainwave so i better go... but not b4 i tell u that even tho my life isnt going TOO WELL... imnot gna try n kill myself =D cuz iv just gotta get on with it even tho its crap even tho nothing ever goes the right way even tho i cant stop thinking about all this even tho i wish it would all stop.... im gna try n stay alive a couple more years....

im back..in black...wel no not in black...in love yesh ano, im whining on agen....im just so fucking fed up!!!! iv got a whole loda art coursework to do as wel...jeez why does life never give you a break?!!? ano i shud "look on the bright side.." etc but sometimes there ISNT a fucking bright side so if just gotta carry on until...y'no...until all the crap is over when i was lil i used 2 think bein in love would be gr8...now im not so sure...its tormenting really...ano,same old same old but its just so fucking anoyin!!! oh well... toodles

im in love with this guy, hes taken, he loves me in a frend way..... SHIT!!!!!!!!! just my fucking luck init?..... im listenin 2 "welcome to the black parade" at the mo...why? ah duno....its kinda catchy i guess... i hate england, its cold and horrible n i wish i was back in spain.... im a moody teenager...whats new?