Ah.okay. so i went out with this boy way long ago.like december. i liked him alot////he liked me alot. he broke up with me.because i wasn't enough like my best friend(the one he really wanted) he only settled for me because he couldn't have her. they ended up going out.i told my ''best friend'' i was totally fine with it. they went out..for a long time. then summer came.they broke up.he went out with another one of my good freinds.and well.now they're done also.so it's been a long time.hes been a prick to me.and guess what!? i STiLL majorly like him. don't ask me why.i just do...no one else even knows. but like last week.me and two of my very close friends.[ashley&kim]we deceiedd we wanted to be bad.but that wouldn't be a first.but anywyas. we broke out some vodka.and orange juice.we also had mikes hard and somethien else.but yeah.it was like 1:30 and were walking around drunk in teh streets.and not to metion were WAYYY underage.but anyways.we started confessing stuff.and i broke down and stated that i loved steve.i was bawling my eyes out.and they were so drunk they told me to call him adn tell him. i got his voicemail and left him one tell him how i feel.well we were out til about 3 that night. but next day i called him& asked him if he had talk to stacie[[the one he wanted over me]] he siad he called her. i was broken because i was told he was ''over'' her.but yet he still called her. then i asked if he got my message.he said yeah but he couldn't hear it. ii was majorly relieved.i didn't want him to know how i felt. i left this nasty comment on stacies blog thing.but i didn't put my name.it sadi some stuff about her and steven adn ic alled her a slut.and then i checked it like a week later and steve had left a comment sticking up for her. i knew from that moment.that i didn't want him anymore. i still slightly do.but i dont as much. and even tho i know he calls stacie every night.it doesn't hurt as much. and yes ALOT of tears have fallen over him. but i dont think many more will fall. i've grown stronger because of him.and yes i will always love him.and he will always be special to me.but i can still let him go. and know that im gonna be okay without him. and even tho i am gonna be okay. it just got a lot harder. i just found out. im moving to colorado. and i have to leave him behinde. we were just becoming VERY close friends. now i dont know how its going to be. woow.life sucks.