Nice boyfriend my ass. We broke up. Oh well. I wasn't super upset. I made a promise to myself when we did and it was real super simple ok: be more flirtatious. Stupid, right? I feel stupid for admitting it, but it's true. I've never felt comfortable but the occasion when I have let myself go and flirt, it's fun and I'm ok. So. I went to see Harry Potter at midnight for my friend's birthday [[it's two days b efore mine]]. She brought along a friend the rest of us didn't know, and me and this friend just clicked. We hung like the entire time. And so we sat from the rest of them just 'cause, and there was a guy sitting next to her that we were flirting with the entire time. It was funny 'cause I'm not even 15 yet and he had to be at least, I don't know, 20. It was actually pretty funny at least. So I was proud I kept my promise to myself but dude we stayed up like ALL NIGHT. I am like dying right now. Me && friend [[that I sat next to in the theatre]] played Chutes && Ladders and Guess Who? and Scrabble...and we all watched Eurotrip which was a pretty good movie. Scotty doesn't know, Scotty doesn't know, Scotty doesn't know... So yeah that's been about it. My birthday is tomorrow and I'm really excited...and then my party is on Saturday, so that rocks my world. We're gonna see Harry Potter again but hey, it was a pretty good movie. So yeah, rock on, I guess. Peace outtttt!

So I'm turning 15 on Thursday. For some reason, I'm regarding it as importantly as one would regard their 16th, or 21st. I feel as if I've grown up the past year and really discovered who I am. So, I have new year of life and a fresh start with the new me. So I feel really good about that and really good about working on my character, my personality, and my flaws. So I'm super excited especially because I'm having a "party" and seeing Harry Potter next Saturday and inviting a bunch of people. So that'll be super exciting...basically I'm most excited about getting a permit and learning how to drive. There's not much that I want to rant about. I'm not feeling down on myself. I have a nice boyfriend, so I'm not having boy troubles. I haven't had any recent fallings-out with my friends. I still love God. Me and my parents have been getting along well lately. I have all day off tomorrow and I plan to lie around and read... so that's pretty much it. Ciao for now, I guess, until I can think of something better to see. Peace out?

Why yes, I DO happen to be obsessed with AC/DC. How kind of you to notice. However, I must say, Back In Black (the CD) irks me for the very fact that it's not Bon Scott singing. I mean, I like Brian Johnson and everything...I mean, he's bad ass, but I think I'm in love with Bon Scott. And he's dead. This may be a problem. And plus, I don't think God likes AC/DC. 'Cause of the whole "Highway to Hell" thing, I don't know. Or mayhap "Hells Bells". Just an inkling. So, I finished A Clockwork Orange, and the ending kicked such major booty that I nearly cried. I wanted Alex to be one of MY droogs. So nothing much has been up. I went to the book store today and bought Last Exit To Brooklyn by Hubert Selby Jr. I got this book because he wrote Requiem For A Dream, which I didn't read, but I watched the movie, and it kicked ass. I LOVE Ellen Burstyn. So, I was going to get Requiem For A Dream but A) Last Exit To Brooklyn is considered a better work and B) Last Exit To Brooklyn was cheaper So, I haven't started reading it, but it sounds so good. It's basically six short stories, and they're all about drug use and prostitution and homosexuality and alcoholism and the underbelly of Brooklyn. Plus, he writes in a really cool style...actually, just look Hubert Selby, Jr. up on Wikipedia, I don't think you'll be sorry. The other book I got was the Grimms Brother's fairy tales. I already read some of the more popular ones. I loooove fairy tales and short stories. =D So I didn't do anything for the fourth, because...well, I mean, I saw Ratatouille, but I didn't see any fireworks or anything. I mean, I've just never been patriotic and it depresses me to see a bunch of people just blindly worshipping their country. Don't get me wrong, I'd rather live in America than anywhere else. But I just think we claim to be more than we are. We're overall a good country, but "liberty and justice for all" takes it a bit far when homosexuals still aren't allowed to marry. At least that's what I think, and since I live in America, I could even start a fuckin' protest for it. And a march. And I could give a speech. I have a dream...that ONE DAY...homosexuals will be allowed to get married... No, I'm personally not gay, but I just think it's wrong, you know, not to let people who love each other get married. But I'm blabbering again. If you've read all of this, congratulations. Keep on rocking in the free world. Peace out? No stop signs Speed limits Nobody's gonna slow me down Like a wheel Gonna spin it Nobody's gonna mess me around Hey Satan! Paid my dues Playin' in a rockin' band Hey mama! Look at me! I'm on my way to the promised land... I'm on a highway to Hell

I got this off of Fallen Leaves' journal, who got it off of...someone else's journal...I don't know, it's a long list of taking stuff off other people's journals. 1. What's your name spelt backwards? Wouldn't you like to know. 2. What did you do last night? I went to go see Ratatouille. Hey, I think I spelled that right! =D 3. The last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Umm...I believe..."The Great Escape" by Boys Like Girls and the CD "Trainwreck" by Boys Night Out. (Which is an AMAZINGGGG CD!!) 4. Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery? Yes. No. It was an AA. 5. Last time you swam in a pool? Umm...a long time ago. 6. What are you wearing? Jeans shorts and a purple shirt with a robot and a star on it. 7. How many cars have you owned? None 8. Type of music you dislike most? Music that most other people like. No, actually, just music that sounds like a bunch of other bands, or music that is trying to sound like something specific (IE trying to fit into the "emo" sound) 9. Are you registered to vote? Nope 10. Do you have cable? Hell yeahh 11. What kind of computer do you use? Win...dows...? 12. Ever made a prank phone call? Oh hell yeah 13. You like anyone right now? Sure do. ;D 14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? Um, probably not 15. Furthest place you ever traveled? Maine. Yeah, I know. I live in the South, so... 16. What's your favorite comic strip? Peanuts!! 17. Do you know all the words to the national anthem? Oh say can you...no. 18. Shower: morning or night? Both. Usually night. 19. Best movie you've seen in the past month? A Streetcar Named Desire. Young fit Marlon Brando = stud muffin. 20. Favorite pizza toppings? Green peppers 21. Chips or popcorn? Popcorn 22. What cell phone provider do you have? Don't have one. 23. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? Nope 24. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? Nope 25. Orange Juice or apple? Orange 26. Who were the last people you sat at lunch with? Dad grandma and sister 27. Favorite chocolate bar? Plain milk chocolate 28. Who is your longest friend and how long? Hmm...I don't know 29. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? Never 30. Have you ever won a trophy? Yeah, for the Y and stuff 31. Favorite arcade game? Old school DK yeahh 32. Ever ordered from an infomercial? I wish. I freaking want a Magic Bullet. 33. Sprite or 7-UP? Sprite 34. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work? Nope 35. Last thing you bought at Walgreens? I think makeup...yeahh I'm pretty cheap. 36. Ever thrown up in public? Probably 37. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love? What teenage girl would choose the money? Really, people. We all know the sterotypes. 38. Do you believe in love at first sight? No, but lust at first sight, sure. 39. SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON? Don't make me choose! 40. Did you have long hair as a young kid? Yeah. 41. What message is on your voicemail machine? I don't really know. 42. Where would you like to go right now? I wanna see Bright Eyes in concert. Or Boys Night Out. Or PlayRadioPlay!, or maybe... 43. What's the name of your pet? I have two. 44. What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it? I actually need a new one, so none and nothing. 45. What do you think about most? Yeah, I agree with Fallen Leaves, music.

If you have not listened to the CD "In The Aeroplane Over The Sea" by Neutral Milk Hotel, do it, right now. Download it, borrow it from one of your smarter friends, steal it from your local indie music store, I don't care, just get it. The whole CD, all songs in the proper order, because the whole CD with the songs in order tell just this amazing story. I don't know what of, but I hope I figure it out soon. I am almost jealous of people who haven't listened to it, actually, because that means that they have the chance to listen to it for the first time, which is just an amazing experience. I first listened to it about five months ago, and I have to say, from that point until now it has been my favorite CD. This is actually saying something, considering I have listened to a TON of CDs since then. But this is just such an amazing CDs, using so many different instruments and amazing lyrics and vocals...just get it. The whole thing. If you must buy it - trust me, it is WELL worth whatever you may pay for it. I cannot stress enough how wonderful it is. Why am I spazzing over this CD, you wonder? Well, today, I was a little down in the dumps. Cue the violins, please. I don't know why, but I was, so, as usual, I self medicated on music like every other musically minded 11-18 year old teenage girl does. And what CD did I chose? In The Aeroplane Over The Sea. Why? Because I felt like being torn completely from my own thoughts - and that's exactly what this CD does. It's just...gah, I can't even tell you. While I am on a CD rant, I would like to suggest a few more...in case you want to know, here are my top 10 CDs, I guess. (In no particular order, except the number one, of course.) 10. Say Anything - ...Is A Real Boy >>This CD is basically about memorizing all the songs and singing along. Most of them are just these feel-good songs that are fun to sing to, but they all, I believe, at least have a meaning. Favorite songs: I Want To Know Your Plans; Woe; Every Man Has A Molly; Alive With The Glory Of Love 9. Queen - A Night At The Opera >>Yeah, so, this is basically just a random CD my gramma bought for my brother that I stole...and I just like it because the songs all range from one feeling to another, and plus, I got the Bohemian Rhapsody music video on a DVD that was included. =] Favorite songs: Seaside Rendezvous; Love Of My Life; Lazing On A Sunday Afternoon 8. Green Day - Dookie >>This was the first CD I bought for myself when I first got into music, and for about three months, it was like the only CD I had, so if I didn't love it, I was screwed. Nuff said, huh? Favorite songs: Welcome To Paradise; Having A Blast; Long View 7. Nine Inch Nails - The Fragile >>Screw anyone who says The Downward Spiral or Pretty Hate Machine. Both are great CDs, but The Fragile is just amazing. The instrumental songs are wonderful and really set NIN apart from any other industrial bands." Ripe (With Decay)", which is an instrumental, literally sends chills down my spine. Favorite songs: Starfuckers, Inc.; The Fragile; Ripe (With Decay); Into The Void 6. Sufjan Stevens - Come On Feel The Illinoise! >>If you've listened to this CD, you know what I'm talking about. If you haven't...I don't know what to say to describe it. >>Favorite songs: John Wayne Gacy, Jr.; Casimir Pulaski Day; Decatur, Or, Round Of Applause For Your Stepmother! 5. The Fratellis - Costello Music >>I love Britrock, so this fits really well. Some great party songs that make you want to dance around and act crazy, but enough meaningful lyrics to keep you listening. Make sure, if you get it, to try to get all the bonus tracks that are on some releases, namely, "The Gutterati", which is a great song but not on the common release. Favorite songs: Whistle For The Choir; The Gutteratie; Chelsea Dagger; Creepin Up The Backstairs 4. Say Hi To Your Mom - Impeccable Blahs >>A concept album about vampires. I love vampires. Hence, I love this CD. And I love lo-fi, so that helps. Favorite songs: Sweet Sweet Heartkiller; Blah Blah Blah; These Fangs; Snowcones And Puppies; Not As Goth As They Say We Are 3. The Velvet Underground - The Velvet Underground & Nico >>If you've seen Andy Warhol's iconic banana, yeah, that's on the cover of this CD. I don't really know what to say...it's just a great CD. It has upbeat songs, catchy songs, slow songs, and one song written as if the writer was on...oh, should I say...heroin? Oh, yes, my wit. Favorite songs: Venus In Furs; All Tomorrow's Parties; Femme Fatale 2. Pagoda - Pagoda >>Ok, freaking NO ONE knows who this band is, but look them up on this site, they're here. And they are simply amazing. All songs by them are just so good, I can't even tell you. The lead singer is also and actor...yeah, he's an actor in a band, but this actually works. It's just such an amazing CD, and it greatly saddens me no one will buy it...anyway, support them, buy their CD, www.pagodaonline.com, it's a greaaaaat CD! Favorite songs: Lesson Learned; Happy Song (not on the CD, kinda sucks); I Do; Amego 1. Neutral Milk Hotel - In The Aeroplane Over The Sea >>I believe I have already obsessed over it Favorite songs: It's hard to pick one because they all need to be listened to together...buy this CD, pirate it, I don't care, just listen to it!! Um, I'm not sure why I felt this strong need to tell you guys to listen to NMH and all those other CDs...I guess that it's just because, especially with Aeroplane, it's just these CDs are all so amazing, but people are so drawn in by mainstream music that they forget everything else. This is great music. All the CDs are. And they're pretty diverse, so anyone reading could probably find something they like. I guess what I'm trying to say is...be more open minded about what you listen to. Take random people's advice about what they like in music...that's what I do, at least. I find a random link for a random band and someone says "Oh my God, this is the best song ever!" about one of their songs, and I take that person's advice and download that song. Maybe I like it, maybe I don't, but I've found a lot of great bands that way. I won't list them all, because it's getting up there, but I do discover great music I never would have otherwise. Please, please, pleasssssssse get Aeroplane...it's just so amazing!! GET IT RIGHT NOW RAWR! I'm done obsessing. If you've read all of this, congratulations. Peace out?

Sorry, it's a shirt design. I forgot to tell you all in my last entry...if you haven't heard of a little band called PlayRadioPlay!, you definately need to check it out. Seriously, this dude kicks face. It's so super awesome...love him so much! Love love love.

Isn't that the cutest little smiley? Awww... So, battle of the bands rocked face. Not so much the actual bands, but it was great seeing all of my friends and the bf. I was so happy. So I went to the beach today...went to Wal-Mart and got some knock-off Converse yesterday...and went to the mall on Monday. I've been pretty busy compared to the first month of summer. I also got an e-mail asking me to help out with freshman orientation at my school...because obviously being a sophmore is gonna be so much cooler, right? Whatever. I was a drama geek in the ninth grade, which means I was a dork, but it also means I made a lot of friends...so being a freshman actually didn't suck. I have decided though, you guys. I am not depressed enough for this journal. I also doo nott rite lyke dis!!11! I believe I may be needing to change this... But no, seriously? It's so irritating when people can't type properly. It's not that much harder to write "too" instead of "2". And please, just because your mom yelled at you for not cleaning your room and your 13-year-old crush talked to another girl doesn't mean your life sucks. I mean, really. Grow the hell up. Sorry for bitching. I will go back to my normally jolly self and spread rays of sunshine upon you all. Speaking of which, I read the best book entitled "Punishment and Torture Throughout The Ages". It rocked so much face, I can't even tell you. It was super. It was just so interesting. So I'm going to see Harry Potter for my birthday. I pretty much did it so I didn't have to pay for a party. Haha. And I'm going to see Rocky Horror Picture show with the bf and his friend soon. So yeahh... Uh, believe that's all. Peace out?

I'm going to point to myself and say "dork" now. I am so excited for this battle of the bands that's being held at my downtown library tomorrow. I've been planning to go with a bunch of my friends and the bf for about a month now, and I haven't seen them since school let out...a month ago. So yeahhh. That's about it. I went running again today. I love running. I had pizza too. Hence the running. I want another slice. I eat like a fat person. But I'm not. Yessssss. ? I don't know. I'm rambling? Yes. I am. Uhhh... Okie dokie then. I think I'll leave before I hurt myself. Peace out?

I had to run the house for almost two days basically by myself while my mom was out. I don't think I ever want a family now, haha. The stupid dishwasher wouldn't work...I had to mop stuff...I think I'll just be a nomad. Live in a different country every month. Which means I'll need money, while means I'll need to rob banks, which means I'll need a Clyde to my Bonnie. Any takers? Anyway, let's swing back into reality here, shall we, gentle readers? I am reading A Clockwork Orange. My brother gave it to me two Christmases ago and I started it but stopped halfway through, and now I'm reading the other half. It is such a good book, but it's hard to read because of the secret language Alex and his "droogs" speak in. So I put it down for a while. But now I'm back into the swing of the book and it is excellent. If you haven't read it, please do. As soon as I'm done reading it, I'm going to watch the movie. So I'm pretty excited. Yeah, I get excited over books. I just finished The Silence of the Lambs, and now I'm reading Hannibal. So that's really cool, and I'm going to be hardcore here and say I actually like Hannibal better, even though Lambs has more hype. I also recently read a book called "Jude the Obscure" by Thomas Hardy, and it was so wonderful. I had to read it for a school project, but I ended up loving it, and now it's one of my favorite books. So now I'm reading "Tess of the d'Ubervilles" by the same auther, and am happy to report it is also wonderful. I'm also reading Dracula. Yes, I do read four books at once. I can't stay focused on one story for more than an hour, but I like reading for more than one hour. So there's that. And I have rambled about books on a site about music. But really, they're kind of related, really. As are movies. Books, movies, and music are the three biggest outlets of creative expression and ideas, in my opinion, so really, they are very alike. You can make a movie based on a book with a kickass soundtrack (music) that expresses feelings and emotions from the book/movie. If that makes sense. They're related. Let's leave it at that. Ok, I really feel like I'm sticking my foot in my mouth, so I''l sign off. Peace out?

No, that isn't the title of my memoir. It is dark outside...it's been threatening rain all day...it's actually been raining all day, on and off. It's quite lovely, I must say. I don't know what the draw is to a random blog. People on here read other people's blogs just for the fun of it - I expect people may read my blog just for the fun of it. But why do we do this? I expect it's to get inside someone's mind just for a while. It seems to me that many people on here write in their blog because they know no one they know will read it, or not many people they know will read it. So they are able to really write about what they really want to write about. It depresses me that many people take this annoynmous outlet to write about only depressing aspects of their lives. People can often seem shallow or pretentious in a blog. I think it's because you can't see the people when they're writing - it's different to have a conversation with people. You can see them inflect different words, stress different aspects of what they're saying. But when you're just writing, relying on italics, bolds, and underlines to punctuate what you're saying, it's hard to get your point across. If you're a poor writer, it's even harder. I consider myself an ok writer, but I'm bad at getting my point across or proving a point in conversation, let alone in writing. I'm very bad at persuasive essays, for example. I can only hope my writing doesn't confuse people. I tend to repeat or not make sense. For that I am sorry. So, I believe that's about all. Enjoy your day. Peace out?