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So it's over. The whole thing is over. I lost him. That is, if I ever had him in the first place, which I'm not so sure I did. In a relationship, my ass. Who is she, the lucky bitch? Why am I always so stupid about things like this? I don't think I've ever been so angry and hurt in my entire life. Right now, I'm not even certain that I even want to see him ever again. God, I just want to die. Currently Listening To: Jack's Mannequin, Into the Airwaves. "Something's not so right inside, living with the news...I am slipping into the airwaves. And this is nothing new, you are slipping through my fingers and into the airwaves. So hang on, it's gonna be a hard day. So hang on, don't panic, don't panic, there simply is no need." P.S.: Except there kind of is...

So the banquet was most definitely everything I hoped for. Well, almost everything. The one thing that I wanted most to happen didn't, but I didn't expect it to anyway, so that's ok. I've never felt like this before about a guy. He just has something about him that I find irresistable. Does he feel the same though? Sometimes I think yes and sometimes I think no. Tonight was a yes night, though. Currently Listening To: Aqualung, Can't Get You Out of My Mind. "And I'm petrified, hypnotized, every time you walk by. And I can't get you out of my mind..."

TCC debate boy- Maybe you know who you are, and maybe you don't. Either way, I just wanted to let you know something. I just wanted to let you know that I've finally admited to myself that I like you. I like you a lot. And it sucks that I won't see you anymore now that debate is over. Maybe we can find a way... Currently Listening To: Aqualung, Brighter Than Sunshine. "I've never been in love before. I never knew what love was for."

Life can be so weird sometimes. I'm just glad it's Friday and I have a three day weekend. Cause right now I just need a break. I just need to get away from school and the people there. Especially a certain guy... Current Moods: Confused and agitated, yet somehow strangely hopeful. Currently Listening To: Jack's Mannequin, I'm Ready. "I am aware I've been misled. I disconnect my heart, my head. Don't want to recognize when things go bad. The things that you'll accept, except that...I'm finding the words to say I'm...ready, I'm ready to drop. Oh, oh, oh, oh. I'm ready...I'm ready so don't stop. I'M READY SO DON'T STOP."