ugh. i feel like shit. once again, ive failed. it was much harder this time around. not even 3 handfuls, and i was passed out. last time, i had more.. but this time, i couldnt take as much.. maybe its not my time, although i feel like it. i love the feeling. you cant stand, you forget where you are and what youre doing, you can keep walking with no destination.. its like you just dont care anymore.. its sunny out, and im sitting on my ass being depressed.. what the hell? screw this. im going outside. bye.