i cant understand why i must wake up this fitfull sleep of years has me sunk deep, and far from the pain that fills your cup of my eternal sorrow that gets you drunk. why are these pains so deep and so clean? i dont understand why i must now awake; what do these sadistic feelings mean? is it you who is afraid of becoming a fake? my self induced coma is helping me try; to push you away, so my soul i can save. but the more i resist, the quicker i die, and push myself deeper into this hollow grave. if i give myself up do you think that i've lost? because i'm not the one thats afraid of your wrath. and how much sacricice on my part will this cost, to save you from this self-destructive path? your avoiding the truth so that you can smile, but how many people are you willing to hurt? but you wont come to terms with yourself for a while, atleast not till your buried six feet under the dirt. this is my absolute favorite. i just made this up on the spot about, 5 minutes ago. xoxox Rach

so why do i use words that cut the deepest? and with my fake smiles; my love's the cheapest. i walk around with hollow thoughts and one of those costly plastic hearts. that. feel. because i cant comprehend emotion, and i know you just go through the motions; i think you might not want me here, but your the one that hurt my love dear... do i wear down your patience? my apologies; you couldve told me to leave... because i dont want to hear that you cant be near me and my care. not like it was ever there. but then that was a lie; i just say this to satisfy you and your metallic taste for pain. so why dont we fight this out again? i'm just so sorry that you cant love me. but thats okay; i dont think it ever mattered to you anyway. i made this last month, when i was all depressed over a breakup. but i really should'nt have...the guy was a whore. *shrugs* xoxox Rach

I was talking to you today... and i couldnt help but feel a stab in the space of my chest where my heart used to be. because of those words you spoke to me: "its not you i'm waiting for." you like her dont you? okay, so maybe i'm just a little bit jealous... this was a poem i wrote once upon a time... xoxox Rach