I wish I was back to quite time Could I chose peace or grittiness A serenity of conflict A mesmerization of confrontation I’ll always love you Even when my presence is not here You once graced me with yours If you are a seeker time tells you Nothing but what is gone And you can no longer regain She never actually admit it to me I never actually admit it to her We both knew there was something Tingling but our minds Were crawling in the dirt We were to different To independent We went our own ways We had been hurt I know I’ve said and done A lot of things Im sorry for the way I am Still pretending to be The one you were yesterday Go away, go away So many days I find myself alone So many days I’ve tried to mess up What I’ve got going We both been around that corner Seen each other once And once more but never said One word Im sure you found happiness Somewhere else Various nightmares exhausted conscious Having myself to mock but Nobody else to fuck Left out of my hands felt like a lier This time I took my chance Insane days are soon to pass My fascination causes my separation I know I’ve said and done A lot of things Im sorry for the way I am Still pretending to be The one you were yesterday Go away, go away Rare occasion How has perseverance ended So unexpected Nothing has been as long a wait As the way to this A droughty heavy cloud Has never been permanent So are you still chasing the memories Well i’ve moved on with an option I hope is understandable Free as can be but my spirit Still feels plenty in misery You remind me of innocence Even if your eyes have been robbed of it I don’t know what to do now You put me in a definite position Of imposition If you could ever see me soon Just your name alone left an impression On my soul but go find yourself

Pure of hate Pure of acid Pure of darkness Your all my anguish Looking for new choices of some kind of test Looking for my own sense of mind Thinking there’s so much left New choices when we join forces Heres some more darkness from all this hate The hate comes from acid That i truly love to take Not giving up on myself yet Except there’s some much Of a part of me that wants to return to my old ways Planning to move through to a world With the discarded society frame With famous ones With hated ones With forgotten ones With pure ones of a kind That have never been seen or said There’s no type of anyone or anything Now I’m going to my old ways The kind that show us Pure of hate Pure of acid Pure of darkness But there fuckin’ must be something left When i feel wrong there its strong Leave it long forgotten Like i show to be When i appear again Its gonna be hell to pay We’ll see that day the sanity appears but the evil is here look around Amber’s acid has been found Missing for so long now back To its return the darkness appeared so pure When destruction appeared so pure Pure of hate Pure of acid Pure of darkness Your all to pure Amber’s acid you fear Destruction is real cause i know what i feel Pure of hate Pure of acid Amber recognizes Pure of darkness that doesn’t fall far from her

Destroyed, smoked, ignored This world holds more in store My fury must be detained Changed my story Well worth no glory Awakening to my incapability That my life must start In a new beginning

By the wisdom i have I can view the mistakes I have made as an amateur Who wanted everything Without being willing to work for it Everything I’ve wanted my destiny Shorten to a certain degree

My life changed by myself For the ignorance of not avoiding Completely my enemy’s In my mind I envision destruction Rationalized by me that i am karma I’ve fallen down at least a hundred times

Time and again i feel with broken flesh Then venom in my veins Cursed in many ways I will see more then one death Then plenty of redemptions This curse shall end

Here I go again Lets wait and see how this one’s gonna end Thought I was fine but insanity caught up With me one more time Moved my priorities out of order Realized that my obsessions Are controversial disorders controversial conflicts that got me Making no sense Everyone questions me Everyone’s fake complete They think they know the remedy’s Through every road They cannot make me not feel alone They cannot take me out of this Junction thats unknown Well it seems I’m falling down memory lane Think of the lies I’ve said As I’ve looked in many eyes Stepped outside my lies felt i would die Now I’m coming to danger To me its a million dollar fantasy If i could be with you possibly ecstasy Here I go again Lets wait to see how this one’s gonna end I’m curios about many women, objects, and events I thought I was fine but insanity caught up With me one more time Keep on realizing That if it isn’t right by now Well then it may never be So tired of frequently allowing myself to believe Stupid harmful fantasies Designated to mentally torment me There’s no birth without death The misery and pretending The plastic smiles that I show Consequences happen in our life’s Stuff thats worth laughing at Here everyone laughs at me I’m happy and I never cry I don’t wanna suffer The roads and captures That I’ve encountered were awful Everything I did to myself It was all harmful considering my past Accidental moments don’t last

life’s a waste of time its another pain filled experience through the roads and captures where we find out of the thought of the truth that my cruelty is paid for lost you along the way where i’m still predicting you and now heres the time to believe that ill (spy) when i’m going further in the nightmare when its over for the dream to come here you’ll be for the prediction made now at the end you’ll see how will find future things ahead where these sky’s never end you’ll still predict me well i’m still predicting you sky’s the limit to what we can say maybe someday to the roads and captures ahead we wont fall in love with everything we meet the single memory will remain no matter how much we hate it there’s still more on my mind even after i finally let it go with the courage to tell you how i feel some detail i left out but here it comes now you make me wanna be a better person for whatever the hell i think its worth it its worth it not to blow this moment off just go with it cause just give me a chance see how it goes see if you like it or maybe we're better off this way now you make the choice weather the moments worth it weather i deserve a chance to make you feel happy am i really worth it for are we really worth it are we really worth it treat yourself well you deserve it cause ill (spy) when the moment is over and all you wanted was to be like this i’m still predicting you even after all we were, could have been, or whatever was the past lift your head up and think of the future now cause you’ll still be waiting for me at the end off the nightmare i’m still predicting you with limits now

Fantasizing with you its exotic Hatred is the monster of Energy That will rid us of this planet Fantasizing and in life I have everlasting dreams The amount that i have seen Beauty ,wonder ,and chaos Fascinating Seduced by the influence of destruction As morality has subsided Infinitely through destruction I’ve constructed A legacy signified and revolutionized A generation Fascinating Through my misery, I hate everybody Murderous eyes, dangerous entitys Secluded anguish To escalate from this depressed existence Wise and intense With a tendency toward physical beauty Like the love That was brutally never meant to be Fascinating Complexed vain and high tempered Not arrogant if ever before not anymore Just lost everything Love the feeling of mystery Love when it feels as if death is near Separation creates this fascination Fascinating i have long been awaiting

There’s always something more That i wish i knew I’m not anymore Then anyone anymore There’s always less of something Like you and the exceptions Heres my silence With all the humor it brought Wheres that passion That you use to bring

There’s got to be more of something Besides the disappointment Besides the deception Well we talked Well we talked about the Long term consequences To our long life situations My silence brought much Your smile to your face

I’m not anymore Then anyone anymore I started to see myself For the failure, for the good Person i am Never claimed to be The emptiness in my life Has started to reveal itself I’m alone thats what i know

It had to be so long Since i last seen you It had to be this way Why are we afraid You must have loved me lots To give me up you had enough You must have thought things Wrong To forget all the abuse

I’ve started to notice This is life what we make it This is me what i’ve made me I’m alright with a second chance I’m alright to know its all gone Alright to still be with my family I’m uncomfortable at times I never feel satisfied Come back to my side

Alright once more Let you and me be together Or apart Our relationship was over Way before the start Heres my silence My silence must have tired you out For you to succeed I wish i was no fool So i could concentrate on you

How am i now How are you about what’s happening Why has meeting you changed my life Is this excitant real If i had one last chance To make things straight I would but i lost faith

Envision part of you distracted in unhealthy reason misfortune thats unsatisfyngly breathing reason the pure soul will not change character that daffiness as a critical unbearable mistake words so powerful regardless won’t remove pain brutal frustration from loss of cherished you reflected emotion on various distortion years removing the drying in at a minimum constant lost train of thought early loss of ambition with it left no determination nothing left to do with life no way to figure of what will be left behind there’s a legacy that will be unfilled the empty theory legacy in regret empty it will remain in all things that have never been done slowly becoming completely frustrated with guilt from a unknown legend a tailed legacy i’ve built opportunity arose discovery completely froze in mesmerizingly hardcore transformed soft impression contained unserved in believed insane obsession uncertain of pleasantness these statements of complete misery should remain locked away in the empty mind they dare challenge appear from detained to cultivate further information consisting to the empty theory legacy its justified statements to not pretend its correct to glorify pain

if im still wrong why would i do it agian im not gana make the same mistake didnt ever recognize the thought that the prize to my life was that i would overcome

i was falling apart in disapointment my love left me hanging by a moment coulnt see that you were never even here with me

im not ready for all this love to go away no im not ready for this f***n day didt think id get this far to let go of the love that struck my heart

now how should i move on where should i go to my love is ment for you cant blame my problems on anything you did on anything you said my love was dead never anything

my problems are just me the things i need to figure out but ill tell you what i need i need you here with me my love left me hanging by a moment couldnt see you were never even here with me

im not ready for all this love to go away no im not ready for this f***n day didnt think id get this for to let go of the love that struck my heart

i was stuck on love looking in the wrong place now i just wish i could see your face now i know you forgot me

didnt i have enough orbiting my mind thoughts are all thats left the way that i put you on the scale everything has failed im no longer wlcome you say im no longer in your heart all i hve to say all i hve to do nothing is forever nothing is for me you can say as you feel i can say as is real expressing the complication expanding the comunication between us but you wont here me out theres more to this theres got to be you told me i had everything now i've lost it all thats your opinion, thats your loss some how you keep me wondering is that all we gave for each other all i have all i want thats, what its got to be your loss you ment a lot to me all i did was express the complication expand the comunication between us but you wouldnt here me out