Im bored... I am one of those lucky people who got to start summer early. Its ok, but it mainly sucks.

I feel like no one likes me and every time I fall in love they dont love me back. And I'll never get someone who does atleast like me back. And I feel like all you peoplez dont care about me and if I died then no one would care and everyone would just go on living their lives. I know I'm mean to some of you guys but lets see whos mean to me?: Allyson, Chelsie, Jenny, Brooke, and Heather (sometimes). And whos nice?: Tosh, Caitlyn, Ember, and sometimes Krystal. Well atleast thats the people in that group.... I think you guys should get some payback every once and a while... And I feel like I'll never ever date anyone again cause I'm an ugly piece of shit with an attitude problem. And every time someone asks me out I always blurt out no.... I know no one likes me cause of that... And because no one really cares about me and no one would shed a tear if I died...

She came in and yeah!! She IS here!! She went to talk about stuff.

Tosh isn't in computer class.. I cant see her so shes probably not in here. I wonder if she went home to get things off her mind? I dunno I didnt see her come in here and I saw her sitting on the bench in the hall before I came in computer. Then I went to get water and, when I came back she was gone. I hope she didn't leave that would suck! If she did then I'm stuck w/ Allyson, Ember, and Ike in the rest of my classes. Plus, I'd be stuck w/ Mr. Maniac (Kameron. Its his nickname) in the halls and on the bus (as usual. If he even rides) for the rest of the day. But Kam is usually my only 7th grade friend on the bus anyways.

Love confused is what I am. If you dont know what it really is I'll explain my situation. I love Shian right? But this dude I've loved before just got really friendly this week. Plus, Shian is gone and I'm really vulnerable. And, this dude is his BROTHER! Its Kameron... Kameron is my BFF but he just has made me fall in love 3 times before and this time he started it by flirting with me and suducing me. I have no idea who I love more this time..... If Shian asks me out when I tell him I like him then I will just go with him... But if he says no then I'll try to win over Kam for a while.

I thought Tosh was dead earlier, cause she said if she wasnt at school today she had killed herself (I'm in computer class right now). So I told Mr. Llama and Mrs. Llama and they told Mrs. Moore and then they called her house and they said she is "sick". I dunno if I believe that me, Ike, and Allyson are still worried. Im in love with two people and im sooo confused... sometimes I just love one as a friends and other times as more. And the other one I've always loved as more than a friend.

another friend-mine is Imelda... Imelda is a very cool hardcore christian.. she is very perverted though (jeeze too many of my friends are), shes filled my head up with junk just about worse than Kenny and Kameron have (but no one beats them (eww that sounds wrong)).

Another one... hmm? uh... Chelsie. Chelsie looks like a gerbil. Shes kinda cool though. She copys everyone! Ok lets not get into that... she likes From First To Last and Green Day (I hate them both), and says that she plays guitar even though I've never saw hers or heard her play one.

Tosh (Vampirehear66) and Krystal are going out... the oddess... Im glad I'm straight.

Ok well Friday I told Tiffany to ask Shian out for me and I havent got the answer back yet. I think hes suspended for the rest of the year for getting in a fight. . Ok well bleh!! Tosh and Kitty arent going out, just to let you know... Lauren is gone! They took her away! Im going to miss her. Well bye.