well, it HAS been over a month again. i'm getting lazy, eh? well. Me and Kyle nevah had our relationship i wanted so badly. but i got the relationship i wanted/want now! and its with his friend Ryan. Ryan is great. we've been together for one week and two days. i know i cant exactly say its love right now either, but, i really think this will be the best relationship im evah gonna be in and i want that to be with Ryan. he makes me so happy. He's a sweetheart to me and i love him for that. Plus he understands me. i can talk to him and he listens, not act like he listens, he actually listens and i can tell him everything i want to and im not embarrassed to tell him. and i love that. i can just be myself around him and its been a long time since i found that in a guy that i like this much. Im supposed to be going to his house Friday ..which todays wed., and it feels like its too far away. Cuz i miss him like crazeh =) i dont know why i wanted Kyle so bad though. maybe it was because he made me FEEL like he wanted me too, but he was in love with another girl but he liked me. thats nevah good. piece of advice time -- nevah leave the one you love for the one you like, cuz the one you like will leave you for the one they love-- so yeah. learn that the hard way these days. gahh =( but besides that, everything with me is pretty good. i dont think i wasted my time with Kyle because if i hadnt i would have nevah met Ryan. plus me and Kyle are still friends and thats pretty good. he says he still cares about me too =) so yay. i care about him ..i just wont fall for his ass like i did this time next time. i plan on being with Ryan for a lloooonnnngggg time. i dont evah wanna loose him ovah something stupid or anything.! i found what im looking for in him and if i loose that i'll be torn to shreads for the second time or third time. and i dont like being torn to shreads ...it hurts. =( i miss Chewy! i just seen him yesterday during my lunch break at summer school but i already miss him. thank god i getta see him friday. my mom likes him. i like him a lot too! well ima gonna go since im in summer school right now. my lunch break is at 11 to 12 and its only 8:40 ...so i have a while. and im getting boerd of this. so until he gets done reseting my tests uner 80% ...i have nothing to do but text Chewy and surf lyrics. much love -amie