alyssa is at work and has let me stay around her place to use her computer, to read, to write and such...i have returned from my trip and have ended up in a relationship that is what i definently want right now in my life. we had sex last night in this very room, briefly...but we both are such compliments that our worry about any of it flew away. she is so amazing...wise in the subtlelest of ways, sexy in her movement, not ashamed or keeping guilt about life - her capacity to live is wonderful. it rubs off on me. i'm staying by her side and we talk about italy, moving in with each other if we're still together in december, and about our love and how much fun we hae together. it's great and grand and i'm feeling such happiness.