"bec what was wrong yesterday? you said you were back to normal. i want to see you happy again. sorry but you're not good at hiding it.. it feels like we're not even friends anymore when its like this. i dont wanna just ditch you just cause i dont like you at the moment, i love you and i want things to go back to how they were and i wanna help you. but i dunno what the fuck to do." My closest friend said that to me a couple of minutes ago. I honestly don't know what to do either. The fact that she feels like we're not even friends anymore makes me so upset its not funny. At the moment all i can do is listen to pinback and watch the video for fortress. It makes me cry at the end for some reason. It was my sister's 21st birthday party on saturday. So there are heaps of balloons. I think I'll go pop a couple. "its my right to be a fucking baby sometimes" -owen