this past idk forever has been bs. i mean with Jc coming back into my life everything is being ignored. i mean talkin to him brings me back like a year or two. all the feelings i had for him then r still here. and i still dont know if i should have them or not. i mean with all those things against him should i really be getting attached? and besides the accusations. HE LEFT. he jus out of the blue goes away and then just out of the blue shows up like a year or more later. idk if i wanna go thru all that again. i dont know if i really wanna be tha person i was then. but of coarse his voice.. his looks. everything bout him keeps me comin back for more. theres no breakin the cycle.