Fill My Forged Prescriptions;; Cause I'm addicted to addictions Well. Lots has happened since that last entry. Things have gotten better and things have gotten worse all the same. I wonder if it's ever gonna even out. Probably not because life just doesn't like me like that. So whatever. Fuck it. My mother still hasn't learned. Contemplating living with father. Major asshole, he his; But I can't stand being around the women. Too fucking immature for my taste pals. Maybe if she got a hobby other than being a whore. Current Music -->> Goodbye (I'm Sorry) - Jamestown Story My birthday has come and gone since I last updated this. Katie got me a bunchh of shittt. It was fucking amazing. She got me a Calypso, gum, now&&laters, AND TALES FROM THE CRYPT SEASON TWO! And it all came in a nifty SCOOBY-DOO BAG! Ahahaha. Don't ask, it's a definite inside joke thing. :D And then my dad gave me the best present of all. He took Katie and I to see MORRISSEY!!! Omg. I was like. WOW. And he was awesome. I can officially cross off one thing on my 'things to do before I die' list. That's how important seeing him was to me. Went to Hawaii. It sucked. I'm not gonna say any more than that. Just becaus I really don't want to talk about it. Didn't have a fucking computer for two goddam weeks. I nearly died. xD Anywhosits;; I think I screwed myself big time guys. BIG time. I should learn to accept that, I guess. Just the fact that I mess things up more than I make them better. -Sighs- I think he really liked me. And I was a complete bitch. And I just realized that well; I like him too. But chances have come and gone. I was too big of a coward to take a fucking risk. I just wanna burn all my regrets. And drown all my problems. Rise above the bullshit. AND BE SOMEBODY. Made crew for the play. I hate it. Meeting tomorrow. Gonna see what all this shit is about. I hope I get kicked out. whatever man. Till the fucking end;; Helena eat your fucking heart out.