Illuminated Mystery Reaching For Something That's Gone Geesh, I haven't updated this thingie in foreverrrr. I've been really busy with school, but not anymore. Three cheers for that. It's been a hell of a time since my last post too. Too many things to go on about. A lot of shit has happened and I don't even know if I have the attention span to write it all down. Last day of school was 6/14 and I'm so fucking glad it's over with. I don't think I could stand another minute of being there. But I actually managed to pull an A in math. Hooray me. *Waves flag* So Katie, Tom and I hung out the last day of school. They came home with me and shit. It was a pretty awesome as fuck day. Tom like, ran into a satellite dish in someones yard. Katie and I literally FELL ON THE GROUND laughing.

Plastic Hearts Shatter The Fragments Of Love Well; today has literally been one of thee worst friday's ever. And I'm being completely fucking honest. I never thought the day would come where I would see a bad friday; NEVER. But things fucking change for the worse. First off; I learn my mother is home from work. She has the entire fucking day off. Well, that kind of rules out the MAIN PLANS for the day; unless she intended to leave. So we come home from school and also learn My sister has strep throat. FAN FUCKING TASTIC Right? So, that ruled out going home period. We were gonna go hang at dads, but he wouldn't let us. So that got fucked up. We ended up going to my house anyway, getting on the computer for an hour and then leaving again;; WITH THE COMPUTER. We went back to my grandmas house. And basically did nothing but fuck around. And then KT invites Nikki over. Pfft. That was a big mistake. I must say; I really wasn't thrilled with the idea of her coming over to begin with. I didn't wanna sound rude or anything or be like 'well no, i don't want her coming over at all'. I didn't have a good reason for her not to anyways. So, she came. And we actually had a pretty good time at first. We walked to the party store and hung out. Brought back like, two cans of SPEED X , a Blue Demon, and a TWISTED LIME JONES SODA. My grandma had gone to Meijers, so we had QUOTA (: Then we got into this suds fight again. My grandma came home and we ordered pizza. Sounds all fine and dandy up to this point, don't it? Current Music-->>How Much Is That Gun?;; Bright Light Fever Well, it started raining and we sorta like, danced in it. It was purty funny. Then Katie made a comment about the Moses Staff and how it'd be so much better if we had it, blah blah blah. So, we all decided to walk to my house and get it. I needed to get shoes and leave my money out in case the pizza guy came. I told them to go on ahead, and that I'll catch up. Then is when it all began. They just decided to take off into a sprint on the way to my house because 'I was taking to long'. Which was complete bullshit. Katie calls me and goes: "You better hurry up and get your ass over here." I was a little mad at her for running ahead, but it didn't bother me much. I told her: "Well, maybe you shouldn't have ran ahead." And she laughs. Making a decisions to RIDE MY BIKE to catch up to them; I do and we figure out what were gonna do. I'm going home to put my bike away, help my mother with the computer, and they're meeting me there. Then were all walking back together to my grandmas. Well, I get to my house, see my mother already fixed the comp, I grab the Staff, and head out to meet them. I figured they'd be about rounding the corner onto my street, but I saw no one. So, I walked down the entire side of my street, turned the corner, and walked up the street on the opposite side. They were not in sight. I was so far beyond pissed. I thought they went back to my grandma's house without saying anything. Well, in short terms, I was pissed. I got to my grandmas house, came in, and they weren't there. Grabbed a piece o' pizza and ate while they decided to show up. Gave 'em a call and KT said that, and I quote: "Somehow we got behind you. We went to your house and the Staff was gone and your bike was there. We didn't even see you walking down the street. I don't know how that could have happened." I know how it happened. They fucking ditched me, that's how it happened. You see, there's no way we could have 'missed each other'. It's rediculous. Theres a ONE WAY ROUTE to my house. No detours or any short cuts or shit like that. They purely ditched me and that was that. My mood finally eased and shit but whatever. Seriously, WORST FUCKING FRIDAY EVER. I seriously hope next week is nowhere near the kind of day today was. I'll shoot myself it that happens. It's fucking rediculous. I could have shot myself today; and if you didn't noticed, I was extremely pissed off by the situation. Enough ranting; Ima leave it at that. The loss that you gave me Isn't rational for me to see Resistance is futile, I stand here alone And all the ways that I have tried Try and replace me, still see the face of me I'm constantly by your side, by your side Love will kill all Till The End; Helena.