Truth. Love. Honesty. Rage. I Hope You Choke On Your Regret Thanksgiving was today. I ate pretty good; one of the best meals I've had in a while. Turkey, corn, baked potatoe, cresent rolls, and a HUGE glass of milk. Went over to the other side of the family for desert, where Nonna made my freaking favorite! CHOCOLATE ECLAIR CAKE. I smuggled some home too. =D Well, an even more pleasant thing to add on to the day was that I didn't hear a peep out of anyone about my clothes. Which really surprised me. (And made me a better person to be around) -->>Current Music: Heaven Help Us by MCR I looked out the window 93747 times to see if he would be there. Which I knew wasn't gonna happen. Sometimes I wish it would. Turn around and he'd be knocking on my door. Telling me H E F E E L S T H E S A M E Its weird. Because he sits at my shop table everyday for no apparent reason. Theres 29374 other open shop tables there, and he chooses to sit at mine. o_0 It makes my stomach do summersaults In other news All my friends are done for XMAS. We all know what were getting each other and shit. On my dad's side of the family today, I had to sit and make a freaking list. xDD They all know what I want, but don't want to get it for me. If they all pitched in & bought me like, a $100 gift card to Hot Topic, I'd be set to go. But NOOO... Gotta freaking think of 9273497 other things... so yeah. We'll see how well that goes. Because these are my last words and this is my last breath I'd give you everything if there was something left I have nothing left to prove and i will live with my regrets I'd give you everything if there was something left! The disconnecting count of days are fading away, the lives that we made Tear drops will spill, from your blue eyes intentions were wrong, I apologize The empire is falling like they planned on and we lost it all The city sleeps in flames Till The End;; Helena.

Notorious Motive We Are All Just A Black Parade Today went fucking awesomely. Half day at school; I skipped it. Got some greatly needed sleep. Made pies w/ Gramma. (hah, that sounds so corny) Learned some new shit in Piano. Arielle and I finally got our presents today. Hoorah for studded belt. =D Got her this sweet MCR shirt. (a MUCH needed one; its her fav. band as well, and she doesn't even have one of their shirts!) Bought mehself a Jack Skellington Hooded Shirt. Well, that sounds like a pretty good day to me. I have about a week to learn 937493274 Xmas songs. Which fucking sucks. Family Xmas party coming up on the 2nd of Dec. Yippee. A night where I don't get to act like myself. I honestly don't understand; All your life, your family tells you: BE YOURSELF. I've found who I am, and nobody seems to like it. I am teased about A.) Clothes B.) Music C.) Makeup Its fucking disgusting. My Uncle asked me if I was in a fucking 'CULT' because I had a few safety pins stuck on the sides of my pants. Un-fucking-believable. Its driving me crazy. -->> Current Music: Thinktank by Skin of My Teeth Tomorrow I am commanded to wear 'decent' clothes. Pff, yaa.. I'm thinking NO. Jeans, black shirt, studded belt. People need to fucking grow up and get over it. In other news. The best Christmas present would be him. Stupid emotions )= Its fucking ripping up my head. Ever since the 6th grade, when all of this ended; I've hated the kids guts. He comes back and I'm fucking F A L L I N G I N L O V E A G A I N And what hurts the most is that I can't TELL A FUCKING SOUL. Arielle just got a new account on here. If she's on tonight and sees this journal. Man, she will FLIP. But I Can't Help How I F E E L. Reinventing Your Exit Twelfth and Hide on a Sunday Feeling like we're gold And we're nothing short of invincible It starts again, can you feel it It takes your breath away Stop saying that we're invincible It's round and round You're uninviting, unrewarding And I'm misinforming you We all want to be somebody Right now we're just looking for the exit This is the way I would have done things Up against the wall You got me up against your wall Till The End;; Helena.

Twisted Fate RAGE ONLY RUPTURES THE SURFACE Well. These past couple of weeks have been going pretty good for me. GOING TO SEE MCR ON THE 14TH OF DECEMBER!!! I'm so fucking excited. My website is going pretty good. (www.freewebs.com/skewedxvisions). Me and Katie just started a new crossover fic the other day. I'm getting this WAAAY wicked thermal from her for Xmas. And I'm getting her a sweet hoodie from The Immortality Project. Me and Arielle are "supposedly" going to the mall sometime this week to get our b-day presents for each other. Even though were about a month late, but whatever. -->> Current Music: Machines by Kiss Kiss On the gloomier side of things; Grades came in the other day. Didn't tell anyone about conferences. Failing math. Hah, Not my fault Mr. Belles is fucking SATAN. 1. He has no fucking clue how to teach 2. I think he has mental problems. Arielle said he threw down a stack of papers and "stormed" out of the room. HAHAHHA Enough about school. One MAJOR issue going on in my life right now. I think I still Love him. =/// And I have no clue how to address this situation so I'mma just leave it be. Ciao. I'll be dreaming about you, In a pool of your own blood. With your eyes gouged out, By the work of my thumbs. The scent of your insides, From under the floor boards. Is the perfect perfume for settling the score. Ride The Wings Of Pestilence Till The End;; HELENA