i have lost every desire i've ever had to make new friends. i really don't care anymore. i'm becoming so fucking apathetic. i want to move somewhere, i want to be something. i don't want to be anything. i just watched the saddest movie in the world. my life without me. ugh. i cried for the full 118 minutes. and now i'm just like-ugh. why am i even writing in here. bbbbbiabia

well. i'm actually happy right now. i'm so much happier without their friendship. she left me, to be friends with one of my former friends who had done a lot of shit to me. and i let her. but what's it matter now? shows what kind of a friend she was. i'm actually happy that they have each other. they deserve each other. i have my athena. she means the world to me, and i really don't care about them. they can leave each other lovey dovey myspace comments and shit, but theres no possibly way that i'm going to let it taint me. taint this euphoria. so whateva! shine on mother fuckers! i found again what i love once more i feel forever like i did before

alone we stand, together we fall apart.