Found a retail job Been working there for a year and a half Took a gap year out Went back to college and briefly did a beauty therapy course Left after a day Did a manicure and pedicure course Passed it :) Now i'm doing a childcare course I'm half way through it Looking for a new job. Looking at the future :)

Parents have split up. I failed my A levels. Didn't get into uni. I don't mind all that much. I'm looking for a job. Sent out about 10-15 CVs. Had 2 job interviews. Still unsuccessful. Everyone has left. And are at uni or college. I've spent too much time at home. It's driving me crazy. I need to find a job soon. There's a party on saturday. Not sure if i should go. I have no money. :(

wow, i seem to write on here about once a year. Yeah so anyways i ended up failing my A levels (sociology & media studies) ahh wells what can u do about it. lol so i'm doing psychology instead. i just finished some exams..hopefully i did ok. i need to get 2 B's to do the course that i want to do for uni which is psychology. hmm what else has changed since i last wrote on here? oh yh, my parents are on the verge of splitting up (Y) things are ok atm but there discussing legal stuff so yh. also, i've started distancing myself from friends cos i've realised i don't like them as much as i used to. I don't know maybe that makes me sound like a snob but there beginning to annoy me a lot. & i don't ditch them or anything like that i just spend less time with them. & i'm considering if i even have a best friend anymore. She's hurt me so much. i need her now more than ever but she's too self involved with her amazing life to even consider how i am. I don't know if that makes me selfish...probably does. Which is why i'm just going to leave things. When she decides to remember me then she knows where i am. i'll be so glad once i've got into a uni and once i've passed these exams. I've just got 5 months left of sixth form :'( i hope this year is better than the last. However, it didn't start good.

soo well i've started sixth form, i left my training job cuz i found it boring & tiring even tho it was only 2 days a week! I'm taking english lit, sociology & media studies. i have no idea where my life's going atm. Everyone's already got their life all planned out. They know what uni their gonna go to, what degrees their gonna take, what there gonna do when they leave uni & i have no ideaa. I hate thinking ahead...i hate thinking about the future cuz i don't see myself having a future. i really can't picture myself in uni or in a job or as a mother or a wife..i don't know what to do. Also i know that i'm gonna end up failing my A levels cuz there so hard & in lessons i'm just constantly daydreaming or bunking off the lessons that i hate...& some of my friends have changed :| & things at home aren't helping...anyways i only have a few months left until my seventeenth birthday =] i can't wait until i learn to drive...

Omg i haven't written in this journal thingy for so long. And i can't believe the last time i was stressin' about starting yr 11. And now i've only got 2 weeks to go until i finsh yr 11. Well a lot has happened since i've written in this journal. I've broken up with my boyfriend but that's only cause he completely disappeared. I think he's living in paris. I've found a work experience placement so i'm gonna be doing some work experience after my exams. I'm gonna suck at my placement. There gonna be glad to see the back of me lol. Then after that i have a long holiday. During this long holiday I'm gonna go to turkey for about 1 week which is a bit short. Then after the holiday i'm gonna go and train to be a teaching assistant to younger children. And in about a week's time it's gonna be my birthday. I'm gonna be sixteen!!!!! But i probably shouldn't get excited cuz my friends will forget my birthday and also being sixteen is probably gonna be nothing special. :( Well i'm gonna go now i don't know when i'm gonna write in this journal again. Maybe next year when i'm about to turn seventeen lol!!! xxxxx

Well today i didn't go to school because it finished early and i thought what's the point?!?!?! So i stayed at home and slept. I had an ok day i went out did a bit of shopping came back. I can't believe i'm gonna start yr 11!!!! Everything's moving sooo fast. Well anyways i'm waiting for my boyfriend to come on msn. I don't think he'll come on. He's probably cheating on me because i haven't heard from him for a while.That's it really. I'm might write on this again, i might not. xxx