So, Wichita eh? American exchange eh? Its aknockin on my academic door alright. Thats all i'll venture for now.

Well its about time i made another entry. Things have changed since last July. I'm now a man... I'm not actually. I lied. Just thought it'd be funny to see the looks on gullable peoples faces. But seeing as i cant see any faces (theres a comforting though) it kinda takes away the whole point. Never mind. Now for whats really changed. I'm at uni. this has been a majorly life changing thing for me. See, I'm a Christian, and I love God. I havnt always live like it and in the few years before uni boy did i make some mistakes. Self loathing, addiction, self harm. these problems still exist but the fact is (and yes its fact), I know i can actually bring these problems before my God. That was the problem. This time last year i felt that although i knew i was a believer and had submittd my self to Christ as Lord and Saviour, I thought that i had screwed up too much to go to him and say: "You're amazingly awesomly beautiful, thankyou that you love me. I'm having a crisis at the moment. I'm struggling to even like me." My attitude last year was so warped and so wrong. I'm being healed. Step by step. Part of the problem is that people always expect that the internal mess which has taken a lifetime to build up, will just disappear in a flash. I dont doubt that if God wanted to, he could just remove all my silly little issues in a flash, but that wouldnt teach me patience and I wouldnt learn as much on the way. I'm now studying archaeology at the university of Chester, Cheshire, UK. I love it. Have so many crazy friends now too. Its great because you dont have to be part of some "clique" to fit in with a group. I like that. If anybody reads this i'd like to explain about the signin name. Split the name in 2. You get lipstick and lezi kisses. They both reffer to 2 really odd dreams i had a year ago now. I dream a lot of wierd things. I had a dream where i kissed a girl infront of my church back in Deanshanger, Northamptonshire (where I grew up), and another where i was talking to Kayleigh, a friend of mine about how i apply lipstick (i dont wear lipstick) I put a tiny bit in the middle of my bottom lip and that was it. great look. So to dreams which had me all befuzzled. I actually wanted to change the signin but i dont think i can. Still, if people dislike it or are cunfuzzle by it they can always refer to this entry or ask.

After this mornings events in London I have little to say in my first "journal entry" on this site. I'm angry, saddened, hopeful and impressed and reassured all at the same time. I thank God that my sister is alive and got up half an hour later than usual to go into work. I thank God that I live in country where the infrastructure can cope with such an atrocity. I my thoughts and prayers are with the injured, the scarred (physically and mentally) and the friends and relatives of those who lost their lives. Good night.