to make you feel my love .:START:. 1. Honestly, how many people have you kissed? Six. 2.Honestly, what color is your underwear? Black. 3.Honestly, what's on your mind? C, Breakfast At Tiffany's, Bob Dylan, hunger. In about that order. 4. Honestly, what are you doing right now? This quiz, watching Breakfast At Tiffany's, and talking to C. 5 Honestly, do you think you are attractive? Yes. 6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?: I told a lie. But only a little one. 7. Honestly, do you watch Disney channel? Don't even have it. 8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? No. I'm not a particularly jealous person. 9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? My friends, my family, beautiful films, lyrical music, and kisses from the right people. 10. Honestly, do you bite your nails? No. 11. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? Maybe a little bit. 12. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? Bahaha no! 13. Honestly, when is the last time you have been to taco bell? Never. 14. Honestly, are you loyal? Ish. 15.Honestly, are you in denial? No. 16. Honestly, where would you rather be right now? Hmm I don't know. Somewhere with sunshine. 17. Honestly, do you like someone? Yeah I do. I mean, I like most people. But in the way that you mean? Yes. 18. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? I think so (yn) 19.Honestly, what was the last thing someone said to you? "Night." 20. Honestly, what did you say to them? "Night, see you in the morning." 21. Gone out of your way to make a new friend: Not really, if someone wants to be my friend, then they can be. 22.Honestly, do you kiss and tell? Hmm I guess. . IFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY:. *Anger Section* 23. What do you do when you're mad? Say the absolute cruelest and most horrible things I can possibly dream up. I am horrible when I'm angry. 24. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? Raised my hand to slap my dad. 25. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Yeah. 26. Do you swear when you're mad? Hell yeah. *Crying Section* 27.when was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out? A few weeks ago. 28. Cried yourself too sleep? I have done but not in many a year. 29. Do you still cry when you get an injury? It depends how sore it is. 30. Do certain songs make you cry? Yup. 31. What usually makes you cry? Films lol. I'm pretty good at not crying but films can totally wreck me. *Happy Section* 32. Are you normally a happy person? Nearly always. 33. What can make you happy? Lots of things: music and writing and books and kisses (and other stuff ;)) and friends and hugs and nice shoes and nail polish. 34. Does being with your friends make you happy? Very. *Self-Esteem Section* 35. Do you believe in yourself? Most of the time. 36.When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you deny that you are? No, I hate that. I just grin and say thanks. 37. Are you one of those people that think they are ugly, dumb, and gross? No, I can understand it, I've felt like that. But so have most people tbh, and I hate when people say that stuff just to get attention.

get high like planes stoled :P 1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel? Telling someone how I feel, for sure. I cannot do it. I look at the floor... and then they think I'm lying. 2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. Why were you angry? I almost never lose my temper any more. I think the last time I came close was a couple Fridays ago when Meg was being really pissy at Martin (again) and I was just like... you know what, LET IT THE FUCK ALONE. 3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make one phone call.. who do you phone? Probably my mum. I love her :) 4. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? I probably would, even though it might be worse that way. I can't keep my mouth shut. b) What do you do with your remaining days? To be honest? I'd probably go to A and ask him for one month out of his life to set me free. And I'd travel. c) Would you be afraid? Not really, when it's your time, it's your time. 5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love. Which do you choose? Love. Trust is all well and good. But love is what enthuses me. 6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you save the dog? I save the dog, I'm not that heartless. I can find another job, the dog can't find another life. 8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say? I don't know. If it was a girl, I'd try to let her down gently – if that's at all possible. If it was a guy... I don't know, it would really depends on the guy. I have a pretty mixed variety of friends and quite few close ones, hence vaguey answer. 10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? I don't know, that's quite an interesting thought. Probably not. I think I'm a bit hard to work out. On the other hand, I can keep a secret and I love to listen, so. 11. Does love = sex? Not entirely but it's definitely a part of it. 12. Your boss tells your co-worker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your co-worker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to quit? No. I'm not that selfless. I need the money too. 13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? "A, it's always been you." 14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them back? Harder to hurt other people than it is to be hurt. So to tell someone I don't love them back 15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose? Music. I couldn't live without music, I mean it. It's the best thing for pulling me out of those moments where I feel like I'm about to lose my mind. 16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you? Sean. He's my "gay best friend" and he's adorable. 18. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you? A boy. C or A. Or Sean. 19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Yeah I would, sure. I know how to do it, so... 21. You are holding onto your grandmothers hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? Probably... fuck this is tough... the baby. My grandmothers are both pretty old and the baby has a future. 22. Are you old fashioned? Yes and no. But probably more no. 23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it? I rarely expect anything in return for my actions. I'd say I'm pretty generous, and I love to help people whenever I can. 24. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why? True love with a broken heart. Because I've been there, and done it. And although it's not too pleasant at the time, you get by and you move on. 25. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be? To have written something fantastic and have it published and everyone loves it! But I could quite feasibly do that. I'd wish for £1 billion and then I could do all the other things I want to do.

tell me that you'll wait for me, hold me like you'll never let me go Hello my name is: Suzanne Okay, who was the last person who held your hand? Craig. Do you like someone? I do. If you could change your eye color what would it be? I wouldn't. What is the wallpaper on your phone? That sunset. Is there someone you can't stop thinking about? No. Have you ever had a surprise birthday party? Thankfully, no. Whens the last time you cried? Um, weekend before last. Who was the last person that made you laugh? Meg. Apparently I'm her best friend of the opposite sex :S How many 20 dollar bills do you have on you right now? None, I'm not American. ££ not $$ :P Where did you last go out to eat? Chicken Cottage :P How did you get your last bruise? You don't want to know. Would you rather sleep at a friend's or have them over? Either or. Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong? Yeah. when I really care about being right. Do you get along with guys or girls better? Evens. Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life? I hope so. Have you ever been punched by the opposite sex? Yeah, but not hard. In a jokey way like. Last kiss? Mmm yes more please. Twas a good 'un. Can you cook harder things than spaghetti, pancakes, and macaroni? Lmao. No. It's 4 in the morning, your phone rings who do you expect it to be? I don't expect the phone to ring at 4 am. Who is the first person in your phone book? Adam. What made you happy today? Comfy bed, book. Have you ever been in trouble with the police? Nope. Where will you be in an hour? Asleep in bed. Do you tend to think with your heart or logically? -Evens again. What was the WORST thing that happened to you today? Attack of the horrible sore throat. A fact about the person you like? I'm taller than him when I wear heels. Do you know a lot about cars? Not a lot. Have you ever gotten into a drunken fight? Haha no. What did you do this past Valentines Day? Lmao I don't remember. Are you truely happy? Very.

he tells me that he's fine – and the sad thing is he's right so. i cheated on my boyfriend with the boy that i refuse to admit that i have feelings for because i know that is letting myself in for a world of pain. now, the ex, who is a lovely guy, won't speak to me (which i deserve). the guy i cheated with is being and arsehole and acting like it meant... like it meant jack shit to him. i don't believe that, not for a minute. but i have to act it, because to admit vulnerability? it's not really my style. i've changed and grown and shrunk and reverted so much in one year. i've morphed. everything is different. i feel like daisy buchanan. reckless. i am so bored and cynical and tired, tired all the time. and yet restless. when it comes down to it – whatever "it" is – i am spiraling ever downwards. and, you know, that kind of makes sense this year. because hell, the downward spiral? it has a lot of plusses. being drunk, pulling whoever, not giving a fuck – it's something i've never had the option of doing before. i've never been free before. it's always been work, work, work. all about the goal. now, there is no goal. and i guess i'm not really dealing too well with that fact. which is also in some ways the best way of dealing with it. get it all out while i'm free. before uni and study. again. i feel sick when i think about him. when i think about his body and his skin and mostly his eyes... his eyes. i do care, i know i do, somewhere deep down, but i'm not going to let myself think about it anymore. i can't let myself need him. he's never going to need me. he shakes his hair and blinks his pretty eyes, but trust me: he's no valentine