Ive come to the realization that on here is going to be my only true freedom of expression. I can write, say, and feel however I damn well please. I came to the conclusion today that I really just dont like that many people. I really want to just basically say fuck you to every single one of them. In our society, however, how could I ever say that without severe reprecussions that will seriously hinger me a lot more. I am supposed to be this caring and supportive individual that everyone comes to when they have a problem. Well not anymore..Ive been fucked over many a times by not only those people but my own self. Well thats about to change. Ive sat by and watched time after time as the girl I like is swept away from me by my own friends. Jealousy? Maybe so but when you treat a girl with the utmost of respect and do anything she asks you to do are you sure its called jealousy anymore? Maybe so..but to me it doesnt matter. Same old shit always happens to me. I always get ditched by my friends. They never call me to do anything because most of the time they blame it on me not having a car. Well they all do but apparently its too much of a hassle for them to come pick me up. Is that so? They use that lie day in and day out and you know what that says to me? Bullshit, you dont call me ever because you dont want to hang out with me. Straight up tell me to my face, im sick of being lied to and knowing it and just laughing inside when they tell me. Theres one true friend in this word, yourself. Thats the only person who will ever treat you the way your supposed to be treated and hell even yourself sometimes lies to you. Is this not a perfect world? Hah..you might think im complaining and crying but if you arent I think your a fake. How can you possibly go through life and not know or experience what im talking about. Its not possible, unless like I said, your a fake and lie to yourself that everythings great. Well guess what, its not, and nor should it be. For we play in the game we call life and games arent always fair.