Hiiiee Everyone! But now I have to finish me little thingie mabober so listin up and pay attention their might be a quiz! Ha Ha Ha I would make a great Teacher but Then again I cant stand Teachers so Why should I even try to be one? I guess I wont try then. AND I Must have a short attention span because I just started talkin about something tottaly different than I was supposed to! Iiiieeee! I hate it when I Do that. But to get back on what Is MEANT To be my topic Today...But I cant leave without Eddie. He is what I need. He is My Drug and Im Addicted to him. And I know that sounds stupid Huh? I wonder If he ever crys at night now? I mean I do at times. Its not bad to cry at night, even if your happy with the person you love is it? But I feel that some thing is missing in my life. And its the person That actually listins to me. A person who sits down and talks to me. I mean Yeah Eddie talks to me but I mean Someone in the family. I Hate it when mom says she will talk to me but when we sit down to talk as soon as i get started she says that its all Stupid. She says she went through all of the stuff and that Its nothing. Well She aint going through it Now I am. And if I had her support I would be able to be happy alot more. Eddie thinks he dont make me smile and laugh enough. HaH! He makes me smile and Laugh to much. I miss Him so much. I talked to him on the phone for almost two Hours today it was like 1 hour and Fourty five minutes when I got off and then I was made get off the phone..I would gone longer if i hadnt been made get off. He thinks he gets to explore Wed. I got a different Idea Coming..Im gonna play the explorer instead. I mean Its my turn. I mean he got to play and Now its my turn to play..But hey I was happy with His job at playing..thats why Mine is gonna be tonz Better :)!!! lol. Hey I have rights to ya know. But he has got lotz of rights over me. all he has to say is down and I will done be unzipping his pants! lol..Im crazy I have to get it out of my system before I go to bed or i wont be able to sleep and if i Keep worried about Eddie like I Was yesterday then I wont be sleeping because I'm not crying tonight. I refuse to. I dont want to I hate crying when Basically everything is good in my life at the point of time except me not knowing what is he doing and what will happen to him. I mean last night some of the stuff he talked about to his friends Didnt sound to fun and it sounded hurtingly painful(Hey hurtingly is me new word ya'll)plus last night I woulda have killed to feel his arms around me again. I wanted to be with him so bad. But hey I have to go I got to find a different song than Cemetery Drive By MCR to listin to its startin to get old but its still A Good song Oooh Im gonna go listin to Frankie J And Baby Bash 'Obsession' the song is me fave! No Es Amor...LoL Well Later Ya'll..I Love Yew Eddie!~Amie Renea Brumley~

If the ground wasnt so dirty i would kiss it but yeah you get the picture im glad to be home after being stuck in monticello for a week. Dude I got abused last night...Josh Hardwick(A Friend of mine) abused me..lol...So now i have a big bruise on my butt and a welt on my leg from a freakin tennis racket. but hey i will write more later....but guess what.....Im not sayin anything about what me and eddie do anymore....So bi bi luvviez~Amie~

I Now Officially believe That I live In Hell. I dont have to go to Monticello until monday because mom and dad leave tuesday but anna still wants us down there sunday so she can get her money and Me to clean for her. And today is a month for me and Eddie. I Hope he can come by after church. Last night was so boring. I sat in the van half the time just listining to music and lookin out the window. I mean there was two hot guys there but hey Im taken but mom always says just because your on a diet dont mean you cant look at the menue...In other words just because your taken dont mean you can look at other guys. But hey I havta get off I'll write more later. Luvviez~Amie~

Mom says we might be going to the auction. I dont know if I will go. I might but Then again if Steven And Them Is There..Im Locking Myself In The van again. Steven gets on my nerves really bad. He talks about people he dont even know..Some of them are my friends. and Then he says he can whip them. Its like yeah right.. I wanna see you try. I dont have to go to Monticello until Sunday afternoon around 3 or 4. Fine With me. I still dont want to go anyways. Its not fair..lol...Who said this world was fair. Mainly who said my family was fair. But hey its the Holloway Bunch and I Am Holloway Blood even though My last name is Carrender Im Full Of Holloway blood. And Im Proud Of It. But I still enjoy being a Carrender. Though Its only my adoption name. But then I wont have to deal with either of those two names in a year or two if possible because me and Eddie will be getting married! Then mom wont have to put up with me as much..I will be happier than I am now...And My life will be just sooo much better..And Eddie is reading this I know...He always reads my journal...hey baby now is the time where you give me the password to that one journal you have somewhere....Because I wanna read it! And If I have to I will beg....See what he does he makes me beg. But If I have to beg for something then so will you. lol.....No one is on right now they are all asleep in bed..More than Likely...Ha and Im the one called Lazy. And Eddie is still using the Bite me Comment..I wonder if he knows how old that is..I mean its older than My aunt. and she is ReALLLY Old....lol....You think If I tie myself to the bed I wont be made go to Monticello? Im gonna try every way possible to get out of going down there. They will end up having to drag me down there though..I done know. Im not that much of a dumbass. Well hey Im gonna get off I think I might go mess with Eddie's messenger...Later. Luvviez~Amie~

Ummm Lets See...Today was april fools day but I never got pranked. Not once. And that was just weird..But hey Im not complaining. Im so thankful for it. Its like Thank the Holy lord! lol But today was good. Besidez a friend on the bus kept askin me if I had done this or If we had done that..It told him no, not yet(Hey there is A YET on there) And I Know Eddie will see this because he only gets on here to see my journal. well I will write more later maybe. Bye Luvviez~Amie~

Hey guys..Its four Weeks for me and Eddie. And sunday will be a month. Im so glad we have made it this far. He found out the end of the sentence..well actually he got it out of me*What an weird way to put that on this subject* and so I told him. But hey At least its not buggin me anymore. Im glad he knows now. He actually knows my true feelings I guess. Seems that his dad has blocked my number. Probably from where Me and Carol Called him so much tuesday when he was grounded..lol..he is tryin to figuire out a way to hear my voice now..So Im guessing he is tryin to get through to me or find away i could get through to him. Im listining to Atreyu-Right side of the bed...Great Song... I seem to be known as Mrs. Brumley Now.. Which is fine with me. I happen to like it. He is wantin to send me a pic of him but He aint got a pic of him on the computer I guess. Well Im Gonna Go I havent been writing much in these last couple Entries...Maybe I will make up for it some other time..I Dont know. Well Later Luvviez~Amie~