well we didnt relive much in the backseat..becasue carol had to come to church with us but oh well..but we did makeout right behind moms back and she never knew..lol...And I dont think she will know..And AMEN that boy can kiss....I had to get that out..But last night was great...We snuggled most the way home..which i dont really care if we didnt kiss alot then because I love snuggling. Hey I did a really short entry yesterday didnt I? Oh well...Who cares. Eddie still hasnt figured out the answer to our little guessing game. And it seems were married at school now...some people have taken up to callin us mr. and mrs. pda..hmmm I wonder why X) But hey I dont really care what they say...He will always be everything to me. The house is so quiet..But thank god that pup is alseep..I swear that thing has to be possessed by a Demon or is just plain Evil and wants to Eat me. But hey I havta go..I just got on to tell ya this because I told ya I would give ya details. Bi Bi People Luvviez~Amie~

Hey people so wats up..Im just sitting here typing..like last time. I just got in from sitting outside and gettin some sun..in about 30 min I have to get ready for church.I wanna look good for my man..And maybe a relived scene in the back of the car...Hopefully....Give ya details later okiedok...OMG Carol is outside trying to dance...how..er..how weird lookin it looks...Not a good sight to my purtty blue eyes... X) She shall beg for gods forgiveness....well i gotta go and get ready for church I Gotsta try and look half way good at least..X) Ha Ha I could kill myself from laughing so much..well Luvviez~Amie~

Ha. Thats all I have to say to school today. Ha Like I Want to remember all that bull shit and cram knowledge like that into my head. Dude Im not even smart..Im Barely passing...Soo Look how its gonna be if I actually made it to highschool. And Eddie says he is gonna hold himself back. If he does Then Im gonna be in highschool alone pratically. Maybe a couple of friends. If he does do that then Im gonna be sooo alone. Then maybe i will go gothic or something. I like the color black hell look at my nails*Not that you can*They are black too. Tomorrow I Get to go to church with Eddie YaY. Plus i get to see him at school tomorrow.I keep gettin the god damn answering Machene..I didnt even know they had one too! But hey that just go's to show that i dont know everything..but i coulda told ya that myself. Im dumb...I could be a bombshell blonde and blow you away with my dumbness..Atreyu is on..Some ones Sitting On My Chest..I Want to get their song Lip Gloss and Black but I like their album The Curse more than Suicide notes and Butterfly Kisses..But hey its me As In Amie. I Miss eddie..but hey I will end up boring ya over talkin about him..but hey I have no idea whats happened to him..I wonder did his dad kill him this time? lol i dont think he would..Dude I have to go to Monticello this spring break(Next week) just so mom can see some old woman before she dies..yeah I know its an old women have some sympathy but hey now i get stuck down there and I cant get out of it and stay here at home. But oh well anna and evertte are pretty cool with me. They let me run around by myself and let me hang out with my friends down there so I think I'll have a good time as long as Josh dont bother me. Dude he is cute but I love Eddie more than ever and Im not gonna break up with him over some sex crazed 16 year old boy in monticello that i would never see and more than likely him screw around with other girls..So I perfer Eddie mainly because I Truly do Love him and He would never cheat on me..Or at least thats what he said I will believe every word he tells me. I was looken and Eddie's space this morning on msn and he had made a new entry about the little game that Im playin with him..It seems to drive him crazy..I wonder if I should tell him or just keep giving him hints.I mean sometime or later Its gonna have to come out*Oooh such a strange way to put that :) * lol me and my Amiemoments lol...I laugh to much but most the time when i say lol its because I cant think of anything better to say and/or I'm to shy to say it..Yeah Im shy...But yet I go around yelling at people in cars up town..kiss Eddie in school(My fave)..Run around with kristy, ashley, whitney, and tonz of others, and play spin the bottle Or truth or dare when Im Single only..Most the time when we play truth or dare I get to be done first and I Choose dare(I never back down on a dare unless its life threatining) and End up kissing, grabing, Ect. with some guy that ive known for a while or I just met. But hey Its okay to be shy.Right? And plus I Only play those games when Im single because I hate cheatin people and I dont want to be one of those cheatin people because I hate myself enough for All the shit I go through from tellin people stuff. Hell Im just gonna stop telling people everything..I will only tell eddie. I trust him much more than anyone around me anymore. He is my only thought. Well I fear i have typed to much so I think i might stop before i get tracked down and an angry mob come at me for typing way to much. Luvviez~Amie~

Mom dont care what anyone thinks...She dont even care how Her teenage duaghter feels. Alls he cares about is herself and Anna and Everyone Else besides Me. So Amie must not be important..Amie must be nothing to this whole world. Amie needs some help before she goes nuts...And she misses Eddie so much..He never called her yesterday and she was worried about what happened...I hope he dont get into much trouble this time when he comes back..Hey this is somthing like a pattern..two weeks ago on a tuesday he was outta school for suspension and he is outta school two weeks later for suspension...Lets hope this aint a pattern he keeps up because I dont like it but hey I cant control him and I dont look to..But I do want to stop him from gettin into so much trouble. He means everything to me and he is the only god damn reason I go to school anymore..Plus he is like my shadow..where you find me you find him..and its lonely when I dont have my shadow behind me keeping me safe. He wrote two poems for me and they were so sweet. He Means so much to me..Mom just refuses to beleive it..but then I refuse to listin to what she says all the time..I mean if she wants to be hard Headed So Can I Be...But hey I'm gonna stop writing now I might write later on..Cya'll and Eddie if your Reading this- I love you so much and I never Ever wanna lose you and I guess I will see you Wed. Call me then if you can. I LOVE YOU! Bye People Luvviez~Amie~

Hey people wats up..Im just listining to music again..Like usual. I Love to listin to music..I cant sing alot of the music that I Have been listining to but hey I can sing country good. Mom says its because I Have listined to country since I have lived with her..I Dont doubt it. She could drive me crazy listining to Country all the time..Thank god she goes to bed and I get the tv upstairs and Just listin and dance to music with carol. We have a jolly good time...0_o lol I'm on something huh? Its called prince albert..lol not really. Dude eddie got suspended today...and it sucks..I dont know for how long yet. He hasnt called me. I tried to call him like three times..Freaken Answering Machenes...So if he wants to talk to me and see how I feel than he will call. I didnt even getta kiss him good bye...:( and I dont like that..Yeah I have finally Faced the PDA and Its pretty kewl..I dont mind kissing him in school I mean hell I would kiss him everywhere in the school if there wasnt so many people..god damn preps rat ya out. Hell I almost got my phone took away for good..Samantha had it and mrs.wake took it from her! I was so upset over it and mrs.Bianchi got it back for me. Thank god. But then mrs.Bianchi is the same reason why eddie is suspended going on the fact that he didnt listin to her. He is always doing something to get in trouble..but oh well I still love him to much to care..But I hate it when he gets suspended. Its so lonely..and quite..but besides that I had a partially good day..Met the new girl, Kathryn..Love her hair top part is red and bottom part is black..Mom would kill over if I did that to my hair. She wont even let me go Black the closest thing I can get to black is Dark Brown..Hey do they make black cool aid..sean will help me color my hair that way..even if it aint perm. But who cares..I Would love to get my hair colored black..Ooooh Helena By MCR has just came on...That song is awesome. And Eddie still hasnt called...I know he will read this soon so HEY BABY I LOVE YOU! I had to get that out honey sorry. He never writes in his journal I checked it....But yet he gets on to read my journal...lol(I Laugh to much, huh?) And I type to much..Hey Eddie honey this one might take you a while to read..but dont worry I didnt use any big words ;) Mainly because if I cant say em then i really cant spell them but yeah like i know that many..I'm waaay to blonde for that shit...Dude if mom reads half the stuff I put in here I would be sent off for keeping stuff from her..Hah like I tell her anything anyways I cant tell her anything..ooh slipknot vermillion has come on now..right after Helena..hmm what a good combo...but back to mom she dont care what i have to say and i was really down today when i got home and i wouldnt talk to her because she never wants me to talk to her about my problems and then she gets all mad because i wouldnt tell her whats wrong and there aint no way in hell im telling her that the cell phone was almost took..that would be a BIG mistake,,,,well I gotta go figure out some other way to waste my life at the time since eddie aint gonna call it seems...and maybe Bob Sharp can play slice and Dice like he did earlier in the girls bathroom after i pratically put two and two together when i seen eddie in the front office and officer pence talking to the principal..hell he was gettin a free ride home from school. He did blow me a kiss though..and through my really let down smile I managed to blow one back..then bob gotta live a little now Im gonna have to get something bigger to cover up my wrists than the little braclets a was wearing and not let sara see it because then i might get the living hell beat outta me but yeah..I dont know if Eddie really cares..I have been cutten for along time..no one really knew though..not even Eddie hell after him telling the counselor i was gonna run away i didnt think i could tell him that i was cutten. Well sorry to bore you with my sad story and unhappy life(Only joy i have is Eddie) Cya Luvviez~Amie~

Hey Its like five thirty in the morning on a monday and Im up..in another thirty minutes I have to get ready for school..But hey the brightside about school is that I get to see Eddie..But next week we wont see each other at all because of spring Break..The break is good but not seeing Eddie is bad. Hey I type to much dont I? lol I cant help it..But then again I'm blonde and I can type faster than my stepdad and he can put a computer together..what does that tell you? Maaan I'm so bored and I miss Eddie so much but in about two hours and a half I get to see him. I Love him so much. But you all know that by now from preveous Entries. It says he is on right now but He aint I can tell from his name...He is asleep still. and will be for another thirty minutes or so. I love it when he holds me in his arms. It seems like we are the only two people around and thats all I care about when he holds me is him. Everything and everyone just wash away and are gone and I just wish it would stay that way but hey we are in school and Real Easily you can get in trouble for PDA Which Im workin to get over with. I dont think mom would kill me really if I got caught for doing PDA but hey I Dont really care what she thinks anymore. well its five forty five right now..So I gotta go and do something for another fifteen minutes before i bore you all to death;) Luvviez~Amie~

Yeah I know I done typed today but Im bored and I have to do something.And Right now I Look really weird..Im sitting at the computer desk with a pen in my mouth typping as fast as I can and trying to think about what might happen at church with me and eddie...No Body wants to know whats on my mind about that really..lol..Mom actually left me home alone for once..Im listining to Cradle of Filth-Nymphetamine Fix...Great song I love it...But I love Eddie More..He means everything to me..Just talking to him makes me happy..And guess what...My stepmom knows what we do when were in school..Carol dont tell her but some how she knows..thats how she knew I am always happy when Im around Eddie..You know I was starting to wonder how she knew that..Confusing almost huh? Sammie a friend of mine has a pic of me and Eddie Im trying to show her how to send it to me...She doesnt know how..She is blonde like me but hey I least I know how to send files..Do they make a How to send files for dummies book? If they do im gonna buy one for sammie...(Sammie if you read this I can explain) ;) Eddie is supposed to be calling me soon....I Cant wait...He is so sweet alot of times..Mom is getting used to him..But im not losing him again over her and what she wants..I love him to much and it hurts to give up something you love just for her..well eddie has called so i gotta go..bye luvviez~Amie~

This comin Thursday will be four weeks for me and Eddie. Next week will be a month that we have been going out. I mean we have known each other since third grade and he has failed two times..he failed third grade(Thats how I met him) and he failed fifth..Then I ended up failing 7th and we were in the same grade again. and I have been crushin on him since last year and he was too! But we never told anyone and no one ever knew. Not until half way through the 8th grade! When mom found out that I was going out with Eddie she was like aint that the boy you used to fight with all the time in third grade? I was like yes mom it is. Its amazing how when your young as in Elementry school you think boys have cooties and wont touch them..but then when you get in middle school its like all you can think about is boys and then there is always one boy in middle school that you will Love so much. Parent always call it puppylove but Me and Eddie know this aint puppy love because we know that we truly care for the other person more than words are capable of saying. I want so bad to give him something of mine(That I will not put in here) But Im to shy to tell him that even though I could tell him everything else about me its just really hard to just come out and say that. But he is figuiring out slowly what it is. I wonder what he will think. Before me and Eddie started going out and before i felt all those feelings for him I always said i was going to go find my real mom when I got out of high school. My aunt, keep in mind that she adopted me and my sister, believed i would too. But just the other day my real dad came over with my step mom and I love them both very much. and they started talking about what i was going to do after highschool and that came up and my step mom was like 'I dont think she will go because I can tell from the look in her eyes when she is with Eddie and when she talks to him that she loves him to much to leave him and run off to find her mom, and if she does really want to go then she will find some way to persaude him to go with her because she does love him." I was stunned by what she said because she had pratically knew that was what was going to happen. I was going to stay with him...I Love her more than ever now because she believes that middles school love isnt puppylove and that Me and Eddie can make it and now in a dark tunnel I was going through i finally found the light that i needed to help me keep going and not sit down and die. I Have hope now that I can make it with eddie. And I will. Dude i think i write to much lol..Well This helps to sit down and get it all off my chest at least on to here. I mean I really think that this relationship will work dispite what has happened in other relationships with my ex's but hey i dont even wanna bring up the x-file. Well I Gotta ditch luvviez~Amie~

The Pain It Hurts, and the thought of not seeing her kills me ever so slowly. Then the next day comes and the pain stops 'til 3 0'clock. Her lips are as soft as roses putting me to rest at her side. The Sky is filled with starts as we lie side by side. I love her so much at I dont want to leave her. Let me stay and lay at her side 'til the day I die, but I know they'll take her away from me . She's everything to me. My light dream and my reason to live. She's the best thing to happen to. She gives me the reason to love. This is what Eddie wrote for me! Aint It so Sweet! I love him SO Much

My Lifes Been Better In Some Areas...I have Eddie Back and Im Happy At School at Least. And then I Still Have A Couple Friends that are with me that talk still...Im Getting more...People are talkin to me. Im so happy these days..I used to just sit of by myself and not listin to anyone and ignore others. But now People talk to me again.....Im lovin life now