i can't remember when it was good moments of happiness elude maybe i just misunderstood all of the love we left behind watching the flash backs intertwine memories i will never find so i'll love whatever you become and forget the reckless things we've done i think our lives have just begun i think our lives have just begun and i feel my world crumbling i feel my world crumbling i feel my soul crumbling away and falling away falling away with you staying awake to chase a dream tasting the air you're breathing in i know i won't forget a thing promise to hold you close and pray watching the fantasies decay nothing will ever stay the same all of the love we threw away all of the hopes we cherished fade making the same mistakes again making the same mistakes again i can feel my world crumbling i can feel my life crumbling i can feel my soul crumbling away and falling away falling away with you all of the love we've left behind watching the flash backs intertwine memories i will never find memories i will never find This song again seems to have the "missed the last bus home" element that I am quickly finding is a common theme in the songs I have chosen. However, I am not sure if this song is entirely appropriate, because I don't think I will ever forget the good times I've had, as the past is all I have... it's more a case that I could lfind the present so painful it may seem hard to remember the good times... Here's hoping I never forget the good times, even though my world shattered long ago.

The story behind the painting I drew is already told No more tearstains on the pages of my diary Tired but unable to give up since I`m Responsible for the lives I saved The play is done The curtain`s down All the tales are told All the orchids gone Lost in my own world Now I care for dead gardens My song is little worth anymore Time to lay this weary pen aside The play is done The curtain`s down " Where are the wolves, the underwater moon The elvenpath, the haven of youth Lagoons of the starlit sea Have I felt enough for one man`s deed? Or is it time to challenge the Ancient of Days And let the virgin conceive" All the tales... The forlorn tone of this song appeals to me, especially the part about caring for dead gardens... it sounds utterly futile.... and being "lost in my own world" sounds suitable... I suppose I am stuck in the past, so I am caring for my own dead gardens... I can't seem to escape or break the bond I've made... "The story behind the painting I drew is already told" I've already told my story, but nothing seems to lead from that tale. It was too late for it to make any difference...

We used to swim the same moonlight waters Oceans away from the wakeful day - My fall will be for you - My fall will be for you My love will be in you If you be the one to cut me I`ll bleed forever Scent of the sea before the waking of the world Brings me to thee Into the blue memory - My fall will be for you - My fall will be for you My love will be in you If you be the one to cut me I will bleed forever Into the blue memory A siren from the deep came to me Sang my name my longing Still I write my songs about that dream of mine Worth everything I may ever be The Child will be born again That siren carried him to me First of them true loves Singing on the shoulders of an angel Without care for love n` loss Bring me home or leave me be My love in the dark heart of the night I have lost the path before me The one behind will lead me Take me Cure me Kill me Bring me home Every way Every day Just another loop in the hangman`s noose Take me, cure me, kill me, bring me home Every way, every day I keep on watching us sleep Relive the old sin of Adam and Eve Of you and me Forgive the adoring beast Redeem me into childhood Show me myself without the shell Like the advent of May I`ll be there when you say Time to never hold our love - My fall will be for you - My fall will be for you My love will be in you You were the one to cut me So I`ll bleed forever This song is very important to me, and most of the song seems appropriate to me... The Chorus describes how I have been for the last few years, so this song reminds me how deep the wound I have suffered is. It makes me very upset listening to it, but it is a beautiful song nevertheless.

Well, it's Tueday the 24th Freb 2005, and after buzzing past this site I've decided to make a nest and sit out. It's quite comfy, but as I learn the tools I suppose my nest will get a good deal more comfy. The purpose of this membership is for me to go through my existing CD collection and clear up those ambiguous songs and try to gather up those that remind me of... someone very special to me. I guess it would be a good idea to post up those that are significant to me. Hopefully this endeavour will make me learn from the music I already own and get me to listen to songs I'd previously skipped. Once I've looked through my CD's and collected a few sentimental songs, I guess I can look for more lyrics in songs I don't own and think about buying new stuff, although I doubt that's a good way to expand a CD collection. I get the feeling I should not being doing this, as this is irrisistible self-indulgence, but as I have learned through bitter experience, I must follow my heart. Yeah, aren't I pretentious and enigmatic? :-P