im listening to christina aguilera that song "fighter" AMAZING SONG!! livin in denial IN THE END U WILL SEE u cant stop meee!!!! thanks for making me a fighter..... everything in my life that i have been through has made me into a better person...everything that i've seen in my life or been through...things that i have been through include my family friends boys places people that i have met professors teachers situations that i put myself in everythinggg for instance...myself i put myself in wierd tough positions ..jason...schoolwork..work..friends...balancing my time.. like my family...my family has been through their ups and downs...i have learned that traditions should break..if something is repeatlying happening CHANGE IT u are smart enough to change things..i don't like the idea of janey and felipe not callin mom "MOM' but as they say...they feel silly callin her NOW ...the truth is ..its never too late...the relationship with my dad and THEM is diff as with me and alvin WE GET IT but why must we alwasy bring the past ....learn from itt...sometimes its a lil too late for ppl hense my sis too but shes tryin to be the best mom she knows ...sometimes choices in life are goin to affect you ...you see how things are and you learn from seeing and experiencing...and deep down you say to yourself.."i dont want that for me..thats not going to happen..like me having babies at an early age and not having an education. i learned that everything depends on urself and they DO affect others..i learned alot of things at an early age. me and alvin did..i dont think he sees it though not clearly as i do...there are some things about myself that i keep bottled up inside...and my mom always told me not to trust friends..so i believed her and i told but not completly didnt really think they would understand..and there not going to as much..but i aslo said its not an easy life to live...to be closed and not being able to trust anyone...and she learned something from me...i know she did. i want a partner that is sort of in my level hard worker sweet and tough all at the same time..a good heart...i dont like fights...exp. not in a relationship. i learned from my parents..that life coming here was not easy..i would say that i have hardworking parents....i feel like alwaqys tryin to break a tradition like im from a new generation and my parents are from another world and stuff it's dfferent growing up and how we are raised... idk how im ending this..but it certainly isn't how i started lol the end...

this is a reminder of what life means to me..... okay well first off. i believe that we should live life to the fullest ..love completely be kind to yourself and others don't let fear take control of you we should all take chances educate yourself do whatever you want to do with your life'whatever makes you happy whatever you can define as: pure satisfaction have fun love the people around you even though there will be rough times...always see the beauty of the life lessons sometimes there are wake up calls you're always going to care and love? your past boyfriends do what you love doing don't give up listen to music listen to people be good and do good be bad have some courage say what's in your heart anything is possible the truth is we live in a world that we don't understand completly..therefore believe what you want to believe i believe that there is a reason for all of us living..there are mysteries here on earth and in the universe..so whenever you catch your self feeling unsure or stupid about anything that seems unreal..don't. because anything is possible

hey again! I'm 20 now..just turned 20 like two weeks ago. i still can't believe it. i've learned so much in the past 3 years since 17 haha. I've learned that the past makes you stronger..i i've learned that you shouldn't wait for the last minute to do something that you know has to get done!..there's always a time and place for everything...make the best out of every situation...it turns out i am a good person haha...i have a good heart...i have good friends...sometimes there are people that just don't care...you live and learn..you don't really know a person untill uuu really are with them for a while...i am going to go somewhere in life...i am a music wize...i can't spell...people change..they create their own path and they are moving forward to whatever life has to offer for them...we all have choices..we all make mistakes and we should make mistakes...no one is perfect...embrace your weaknesses...i still wish the best for everyone..okay enough of that. i've learned a lot as you can see. so i'm working at a shoe store and i like it there. pretty annoying how ppl (customers) leave shoes all over the place..shows a lot of their home life...i got into a car accident on my 20th bday i was not the driver..i let a fool drive my car. so i guess i was a fool at that moment as well. i start school tomorrow. I'm liking that event. i miss it. i guess that shows me something. it shows me that i have a yearning to learn. plus it's exciting to see new faces. I'm just enjoying life right now. I'm not going through a content time, kind of below that. but it's a phase..i'm usually happy always smiling nice to everyone...the "best of me" song is still on my mind.i believe that fate has everything to do with our lives and the events that occur..signs are everywhere.

my name is stacey. I am 17 years old and hate growing up.i hate the part where everything changes in life. i don't believe in myself most of the time and i get sick of it.i also am very lazy. i have my mood swings which i cannot control .i ususally think something is wrong with me.but deep inside i know i am a good well rounded person.i like to be different as well .well actaully i am different.i like deep conversations with anyone.i like to meet new people but sometimes i am shy and that gets in the way. i think the world is cold with many ppl who don't have anything good to say.i want to make life diffrerent.i don't know who i am most of the time,like as if i am lost in the sea with no sense of direction.i like to write in my spare time especially in my journal.i belive that ppl are all unique and are living for a reason. i am not religous but hope to go to chruch when i get older.i am a very nice sweet girl once you get to know me.i dont' like being fake.i have a big issue on that.i like differentkinds of ppl.i like nice quiet ppl i always wonder what they think about.usually the quite ones are the good ones*.i have my differenet sets of moods.i can be happy,cheerfull crazy!i ....can be quite and keep to myself,....and just be there to have a good conversation with someone.these moods really get to me sometimes b/c i don't ever want to make someone feel like i don't like them when im not talkin but i can't help it. i ahte when theres a whole group listenign to me,it's better if theres just afew.i am down to earth and i can be weird at times and have an imagination. i don't think i am smart in school but deep down i knopw i am, just not in school.i ahte it when thers three ppl who are talkin and the third person is left in the dust.i like rings.. wierd exotic rings.i am not like my friends. i sometimes think i want to renew myself.i have a good heart and i wish the best for all people.i do have an opipion but usally i don't say it.i alwasy drift off into space and i always wonder what people think of me.i know that i am my worst enemy.I have a good heart and i am unique but i hope ppl can see that.

all the pages are being ripped one by one the story is changing theres a new ending as we return to the story the story is renewed where will it go from here? who knows

why am i stuck in this hole...there's a new world that i can live. i wonder if you still care..i wonder if you still think about me. at night i would cry in the whispers of your voice. why are you so mean to me? why am i so mean to you. is it because god is telling us that this will never work out. a sign maybe god is sending us. i dont know but all i know is that i'm lonely. i wonder if you still care... i wonder if you still think about me. how long will i be waiting to hear from YOU again. my wounds are hurting now, waiting for a "medicine" i wonderr if you still think about our memories..the funny ones the sad ones the moment when it was just us... ill just keep on wondering if you still care for me.

Sitting here all alone on Valentine’s Day I really wanna call him up But my pride is all in the way (hey, hey, hey) Picture’s getting clearer I see what’s been going wrong for years The once you say you’re far Really are so near I’m thinking of