so. one day until history azam it is 4:42 pm and i have not as of yet started studying as it is my birthday. People shouldnt have to study on their birthdays. It even sort of contradicts the whole purpose of birthdays. i hate exams. i am now 18 but can't go out.fuck fuck fux. Currently listening to Sarah Blasko's new album and Sam's Town by the killers. hm. need to study, bbl less go get fucked upp ..!

i met a new person yesterday. and meeting him sort of reinvented my perception that every living person is in fact a fuckhead. There are some nice, decent people out there, people worth knowing. But the real subject at hand is my future. which is fast becoming a pile of fucking shit due to my inability to study. I need self control and some sort of motivation to cause my to get a grip and start studying. i know the consequences of what im doing and yet cant seem to make myself do anything about, its a god damn shitty situation to be in. Almost a rut. except im not middle aged and not bored with my life, just somewhat confused with the direction it seems to be taking. doing SATs was a bad idea; im possibly the biggest loss of potential ever and its just going to dissapoint everyone i know. That is unless i crack and actually start studying which i could do , making use of the precious amount of time i have left before my exam.

"You've got the most unbelievable blue eyes I've ever seen" im obsessed with prison break. its unhealthy; its distracting ; its awsm. Im wasting me life away watching MiSa videos on youtube. Not the most productive thing to be doing when i have exams in 6 days. 6 days. 1 2 3 4 5 6. im screwed. English is a hard and boring subject to study for. i really dislike it. shutup. mi4sa