after deleting all former entries i have decided to return as i am bored/stressed/about to implode and need to vent somewhere inconspicuous. therefore instead of going to the awsm effort of creating a livejournal or something equally appropriate. i have returned to this wench of a website journal. I am becoming more and more paranoid and unhappy with existance by the day (however melodramatic that sounds) and pretty much am going to pin it all on drugs; because thats the easy way out and i am naturally... a very lazy person. so...the things that are contributing to my bored/stressed/about to implodeness: 1) my hair is completely ruined. i am v.v. vain, i like to have nice hair, it settles my peace of mind and normally i do but now it looks like absolute clown vomit. Plus the ends are all split and broken due to excessive straightening (FUCK YOU TECHNOLOGY FOR RUINING MY HAIR) if i calculate correctly this means if i keep going at this rate by time i am 39 i shall be entirely bald. so thats something to look forward to. 2)umm oh yeah SAT's in 6 weeks. woo my entire future is about to be set out for me according to what i get in 5 stupid azamz. Hell good way to ruin someones life y0. 3)i have 0 money, acctually thats a blatent lie, i have $39 :3 and am expecting another $50 by tomorrow so thats ok.. but STILL. money doesnt last when drugs are available and its fucking my wallet up. PLUS show tomorrow which means i will be buying a whoooole lotta crap while on some god damn bender, and then i'll go home, come down and go "why the fuck did i buy an inflatable pair pf scissors? oh yeah i was FUCKED OUT OF MY MIND" 4) there is a way cool hip rad party on tonight and my hair sucks so i will look like some kind of hippy retard that tried to dye their own hair with natural goods and failed miserably, but doesnt care because they are a hippy and are too stoned to know wtf is going down. 5) i dunno what else. and seriously cbf thinking of more excuses to explain the shitty situation im in. ughhghgjsggdkdsadccvdbcvnxvczcxbvzxvcnbvbxcMVCBVZVCZVCznxsdjsdgha@life. peh.