i have not to long ago got caught doing drugs and now for a while i didn't do drugs and felt like crap and then i felt good and then i felt like crap so recently i started doing nutmeg, dramamine and other not easly traceable drugs and i feel i million times better on the drugs then when i am off but i'm still depressed so i might be wrong? i have lost all reason to care but i still care. i hurt the people who love me and i try just to stay friends cause i don't want people to get close so i don't hurt them i am just a bad person inside and have no reason to go on but i will so i don't hurt the people that love me anymore i just want froget it all and drugs don't do that but they help ease the pain.