LOST IN YOU – BROKEN SUNDAY Lost in you And knowing what is real As you're drifting free of all tomorrows And the pain is forgotten like a dream That floats on dream to never known *Chorus So tell me what is on the mind Of someone who’s lost themselves inside Well life has changed but you remain the same for now Find what’s left and change yourself somehow Silence comes to take your breath away As you come to realize your sorrows Stumbling down in places finally found It’s the dreary, I’ve been lost and lonely *Chorus Falling through oblivion Truth finds itself a mark in stone Falling fast as you tumble down Among the good, the real and true *Chorus (x3) ************** okay, I am in love with this song too... and this band, BROKEN SUNDAY... they're from Grand Rapids, Michigan... frick, I have to listen to this song like multiple times, whenever it comes up on my itunes shuffle... kelly transcribed these lyrics for me, so kudos to her! hahaha, anyways... i just wanted to post this... and i know i won't find it under the currently playing list, damnit... god, i don't know what it is about this song that speaks so close to my heart... maybe, it's just that as comfortable as i am with just being myself right now... i just want to find someone that i can lose myself in, frick, that i can share the world with... *sigh* but i still got a long life in front of me... i love this song... anyways, i don't want to take away from the song... but no classes for us today! woo hoo! it's assessment day, therefore no class... we're suppose to go to a focus group and talk about our first year here... yeah, my alarm went off this morning and i decided that that wasn't going to happen... but i did get up to go to my mandatory major/minor meeting... and i have to pay tuition, get auralia put on my computer, and pay for the holding of the suite that we want to get... plus some studying tonight... yeah...

when the sun came up we were sleeping in sunk inside our blankets sprawled across the bed and we were dreaming there are moments when i know it and the world revolves around us and we're keeping it keeping it all going this delicate balance vulnerable all knowing (sing like you think no one's listening) you would kill for this just a little bit so, sing me something soft sad and delicate or loud and out of key sing me anything we're glad for what we've got done with what we've lost our whole lives laid out right in front of us *** god i love this song... and i don't know why... it's just touching something deep within me... and i can't explain it... especially the last verse... maybe it just means something to me that i haven't found yet. Hope... it shows hope... i don't understand the title, maybe we're not suppose to... i wish i knew what they thought, or what the song is just suppose to mean... love, being true to another, sleep, comfortableness, unconditional, truth, hope for the future, being accepted for who you are... maybe it's just a little bit of all of that. i love this band, it's the best new one that i've heard. their songs just capture me, pull me up into a mind set, a moment... this song makes me think that everything will be okay... someday

"If this is goodbye to you and me, what a good friend you've been to me And i owe it all to you, every good thing that i do is you. " i was listening to this song as i'm studying for my economics test on wednesday... and oh dear... is this what we'll become? me and adrian... this is scarying the shit out of me... i still want something more and i want to hope that it'll happen eventually, in a few days.... but if he's let go... then i have to... but if he hasn't, then i don't want to let go and have everything go to shit... oh my, i'm freaking out just a little bit inside right now... "I used to think that you were someone else, then I'd lose my mind each day I used to think that i could help myself, but its true what they say, "there's no reason without way" " yeah... this verse reminds me of before... december of last year... i thought that he could be so much better... i thought he was awesome overall... and we started drifting apart or whatever happened, i'm not quite sure what did happen... but then he did stupid stuff... "I used to wish that i was someone else, then i'd dream away the day Those dreams have made me into someone new and its true what they say, "there's no better time than today" " this verse... is just something that i feel within myself... i wish that i could be different, i always have... and i'd dream or fantasize about it... but when i heard that some one possibly liked me for me, i felt new... and that there was no better time than today... and now it's back to square one... i just haven't quite made it completely through this verse. "if this is goodbye to you and me well, what good friends we will always be and i owe it all to you, every good thing that i do is you " maybe i just need to talk to him... but that's so hard when the thoughts and feelings just aren't very coherent within myself... i need to find out "if this is goodbye to you and me" or was... i guess i just need to find that out to be able to let go properly... and i know that i won't be able to let go until i find someone new... but i have not urge to find that someone new, when i know there could always be that possibility... i just want to be better for him... although, he could be saying the same thing... that's why he's holding back, is because he knows that i think he can be so much better, and maybe he just wants to be that man before we possibly get together... but i don't want it to be too late for him... i still feel that attraction... and i just circled, that's all i seem to do when it comes to him... that's all i seem to do... along with getting my hopes up, and scared that they will be cut down and dashed away forever...

"Well, I'm willing to break myself To shake this hell from everything I touch I'm willing to bleed for days more reds and grays So you don't hurt so much " there is so much symbolism in this song... i love it... it speaks to me and to my heart right now... i will give up so much for anyone to be doing better in their life, that i will always put them first if they are close to me, than myself. and someday i just want someone who will do that for me... put me first and visa versa. "I'm on fire / And the day is feeling hopeless You'd see me burning but the burning's turning smokeless Soon I won't feel at all " i hate days like this... i had some this week... there was just so much to do, and i didn't feel like i could get it done... being so busy otherwise also... i really need to go and simply do all of the stuff this weekend... i'm working today, right now actually, but tomorrow it's suppose to be shitty outside instead of gorgeous like it is today "And now I'm static / As your sky is turning purple and gray I'm learning that the further that I crawl The farther that I fall, is that ok? / No And you're in pieces / As your world becomes a rainstorm You've got no shelter I'm a thousand miles away If you survive the day / You say you're leaving " I want this... i feel lonely... and i think that's why i want this so much... i just want to feel... i hate to sound like an aweful person, but i've been so devoid of emotions, unless something really makes me feel... *sigh* i dunno, i lost my thoughts for this song, so it's time to go