it's been a while & here's an update: ++ i moved to seattle to be with a guy -- he broke up with me 2 months after i moved here for him, ALL THE WAY FROM FREAKIN' NEW YORK! ++ had an awesome job at a pizza place -- got fired cause i was late twice ++ i just did my firt suicidegirl.com photoshoot -- can't find a real job and it sucks ++ i've met some pretty amazing people in seattle -- most of them stabbed me in the back my life is such a mess right now and in completely sucks. i try so hard to look on the bright side. and when something somewhat positive occurs, my entire world comes crashing down. i meet a guy & crush on him.. he ends up wanting nothing to do with me. i get an awesome job that pasy $200 a week.. they call and lay me off due to the fact they can't afford $200 a week. WHAT GIVES!? am i doing something wrong here? i've been busting my ass looking for jobs, calling everywhere & anywhere and NOTHING! i don't know what to do. maybe moving back to NYC would be a good idea..