First of all, I would like to de-classify the apparent air of secrecy that I referred to in my first entry concerning a "mission" of mine. That mission was to re-establish contact with SongMeanings member whoring.for.love, a girl I met three years ago at a summer camp. I joined SongMeanings after finding a common screen-name of hers being used here. After reading the profile, I discovered it was her, and immediately joined this site as a front to my sudden desire to reconnect with her. For one must understand, I have not talked with her since June 2003, and that was cold and brief. I felt afterward that I had betrayed her, just because she seemed to have changed. I wanted now to contact her and let her know she and I are still good friends, even though it seemed not so. Alas, that mission was a failure. Member Whoring.for.love has long ditched the site, and shows no sign of returning. Neither is her listed email address active. I have her phone number, but such spontaneous contact via that method would seem crass and highly unusual. So I have left that path... ...but something else has sprung up since then. On December 25, 2004, an entity known as Margaret contacted me after a year and a half of silence. I replied, and she returned a email on February 19, 2005, declaring she never received my first reply. What makes this more interesting is that I met Margaret at the same location in June 2003. She is radically different from whoring.for.love, in that Margaret is wild, unpredicatable, and like the Kristen I knew from long before, is a seductress who will do anything to have her way. Naturally, at the time I met her, I was weaker and fell for her charms, only to be duped. Since then, my great anger dulled, and I decided to be at least respectful and do what anyone should do to their enemy: show them respect in return, despite the pain they inflict upon you. Some call that Jesus. I call it human. Anyway, I sent her a simple Christmas/Hannukah greeting (she is Jewish) and got the the reply I mentioned earlier. Now I must decide how to handle this re-emergence of my past. I must decide soon, for the time may come when I have to face all my enemies. I would rather convert as many as possible to my side than face hordes. It is destiny. That, I can believe in. Until then, I will keep using this site sporadically. It is actually a rather cool place. I am glad I joined.