Seems like a long time since we last talked.

It been so hard these past few days, thinking and thinking some more. Just wanting to reach out and say something knowing that it's not right, not fair. I jsut want to say I am sorry. Really.

I hope my short stupid email doesn't make things worse, make you hurt worse. I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you - that i hadn't forgot you that I was leaving not looking back just running 'cause running is what I do best. really.

Going to title my entries by the current song title/artist. Secretly joined sounding_off though all I did was spell Jaculi backwards (ilucaj) and signed up. Asked about posting material and found out the website is moving - which is currently under my hexadrome domain. The vise clenched around my chest one more step further apart.

Yet another day in paradise. It has been over a week and I have yet to make a move or hear from you. Knowing that if I did call or write or txt you would be a mistake and make matters only worse. So I am goign to let it out here and maybe one day you will read this..

This really work??