Today I didn't feel like sitting with people for dinner so I took chicken strips back to my room where I procrastinated daydreamed and felt sad until i actually had to start work again.

I THINK WE SHOULD HANG OUT AND BE FRIENDS AND STUFF OR MAYBE SOMETHING MORE BECAUSE YOU SEEM REALLY COOL

Dammit, sadness, insecurity, ugh what exactly is it about me that guys don't like do they like me and i can't tell why have i not gotten any interest in me in years not even from girls, nor from guys do i just need to speak more so that i'm not so secluded? do i need to get to know social cues more? do i need to get rid of any standards? do i need to be a fucking whore? do i need to be more fucking flamboyant already hate myself enough. i hate how not having anyone to love me makes me not love myself. and i thought i was getting there i wish i could get rid of my motherfucking need for someone

I know I think of this too much, but i fucking hate katherine. Receiving her call annoyed me. Her active on facebook annoys me. Everything about her I fucking hate, and I don't like that I concentrate a lot on how much I hate her. I simply just want to think nothing, and have it back to where I didn't know who she was. There is nothing from our friendship I really care for or about. Also I need to stop my rampant daydreams.