yeah pretty sure alex was just a way to get out sexual frustration he's an idiot. devoid of spirit, how did i let him become my friend? and wanting him closer? but why he's not the type of person that wants to talk to mee he should be let go the only fear now is sexual frustration onto reedies but at least i love them they want to learn, they're smart, brilliant, oh how they're wonderful! my friends will too disappear that's weird i want someone god fucking dammit. and i know that i picked jackson because of his looks. though we had excellent conversation.