I think I hate him more than ever. I cannot talk about myself. i cant find anyone who will. i cant get my problems out. it bugs me.

I feel no sympathy for him. He is suffering. He's too emotional. You should have known that I wasn't for you. You fucking idiot. We could have still been fucking friends. You are weak.

I do hope he suffers. Does he know I almost cried? Does he know I hate my heart for what I did? Does he know that the reason I never came was because I hated the entire situation? Does he know I cannot do anything like that as soon as it happened? He doesn't respect me. I hope he suffers. he took my virginity. my morals. my logic. my loyalty. and I hate him. He should feel guilty. I have felt nothing but guilt, and I know I had no reason to be. I keep saying im sorry, and he hasn't said it. i will not regret this moment. he will never win my loyalty.