so yeah everything that's happening here lately seems to me like it's happened before... but i can't remember the answers to the big dilemmas and i've been reminiscing a lot. listening to a lot of old music.... songs that remind me of summer, rush, dj, shane... and i dunno what to do. i miss megan, mom and dad hate my boyfriend (i might hate my boyfriend), i still have no idea where i'm going to college, and i hate spanish 2!!!! oh, not to mention the impending hospitalization if i dont gain 10 pounds! well, okay, i'm not gonna! and i have logical reasons... i dont think that i need anyone to dictate the dangers of anorexia to me every month! i'm quite aware of myself. i know when things are going downhill and when they're okay... i can take care of myself on that level. i've decided that i either love cory more than anyone in the world or hate him. he likes rap. i hate rap. whatever i feel for him is strong... now if i could just figure out which end of the spectrum it's at.