I’m breathing in the aroma Of a night spent on my back Staring at the stars Whose intentions are only to cut me open Its ok, I’ve overcome from worse than this But the scary part is the fact that I got nothing to lose this time I can’t help but find myself glued to the streets Staring at every passing pair of headlights Wondering where they’re going And thinking if they got it as bad as me I don’t know if their story could compare I’ve been writing entries every passing day I hope you see the west coast And while your there could you find something for me Something far from here, a place by the sea And just maybe you could seal your voice in a seashell So everything will be fine one more night I’m short of breath Lying face first in a puddle on my lawn I’ve seen the colors of blue and green Beating raindrops freshly sprinkle the wrinkles on my skin And I’m reaching for a cloud of air that isn’t even there Walking on a tightrope between each of your memories This is what you ask for when your silence says it all

It’s not the lump that forms in my throat Or the shakes that cause earthquakes in my stomach It’s just the pure thought of watching you walk away And if my head wasn’t so clouded with doubt I’d probably leave this place and see you now But I’m sure it could never be that easy You could never be that easy Maybe in last desperation I could stand outside on the gravel path And sing out your favorite song With all my sanity poured into every note Until my insides bleed and my organs shut down It would all last in your memory Every single word of the version you never heard

The sun was fading over the hills And the stars couldn’t hold back any longer Something about the mountain range That killed my insecurities The miles kept stretching throughout It just doesn’t go by any faster And the stops on the side are only temporary You could smile the light off my face Attract the beams from the red spots in the sky You’re making the moon jealous And I can’t remember the last time My chest was free of everything I needed to say You extracted, you collected Everything I meant to disclose So we can find conversation in the passing signs I memorized each one on the trip home The Polaroid’s lay on the floor from the night before And as I gaze over to the right You were asleep in the seat next to me With your arms crossed And if by the time we reached the paved roads You had awaken from the sound of my voice You wouldn’t need words We never needed words

And I’d hate for the thought of her To ever cross my mind again I’m just too intimidated From the months we spent apart Just to hear her voice again Just to have her smile blind me Oh these days are so nerve-wracking I’ll go insane from our lack of results From this attention to lesser details I’ve lost my sense to care About others who could save me But their just not her So please don’t let my lack of originality Come between whatever she has to need I’m ready to stir up a storm In attempt to budge her lips So she could tell me herself Everything that she’s missed Well if she does then she will And if she doesn’t then she won’t But I’m not one to let myself down Just from a rapid drop of hope And if I ever got famous She said she wanted to see me Well I’m just a dreamer With a lack of reality

Half the time I’m engulfed in dreams That alters my perception But believe me; I’ll still be here tomorrow Visions of a chilly day in early November Our bodies lying in the leaves Wrapping around you and me Imprints of us in the pile We both know it’s worth the while Passion me in your genuine way Lips full pressed against mine How you get me so built up Before I hit the ground It’s so hard to feel this green ridden grass It’s always dead before the snow But the life you give this place It’s nothing here without you now I’m dying for a windy day To move your blonde hair in the way That complements your gleaming eyes And leaves me breathless in your tracks Run away before you’re in my head Before you’re permanent, before it’s too late But I can’t forget you now Not without the life you shifted The perfect lines and the longest stares The moon just keeps following us And breeze moves us on A picture’s worth a thousand words But I am speechless Words are not so easy when you’re swept away And it’s nostalgia and my wistfulness is growing Your arms are slowly shaking With the beat of my heart Slowly dropping faster Your presence is golden

Your eyes are over zealous Your mouth is sending messages But I’m deaf to every sound I’m clueless to what’s been left now I watched you leave too many times I forced the words so they would rhyme But I’ve learned that sometimes The best things in this life come out of order Let’s spend one more night in a car Surrounded by a black sky and its stars Let’s practice what your parents resist You just can’t force something like this I’ll say the right words at the right time I’ll play Casanova for one more night This is your one chance Make the most of it The night just stretches on and on and on Accept my hand cause its all I can give you now But more is waiting You can make me, or you can break me I’m a loose end, you can untie me I am broken, you can fix me This is yours now It’s in your hands now You can break me Or you can save me

Breaking down the boundaries Our lies are safe for keeping We could talk our way out of a bad situation When curfews run longer The laws they’ll pass to slow us It hasn’t begun but it’s over and done with So think about your words before their out there and open They just might hit someone who just doesn’t deserve them You can only live off of instinct so long At one point you’ll grow old and your senses will be gone So lessons aside You got to live while you’re alive Cause a countdown is ticking The second you open your eyes And every time you blink A moment goes unnoticed Our hearts bleed for action We’re constantly craving Somewhere far from here There’s a flavor we need to taste Cause caution is road map It leads us out of this place Went straight to Newport And played crack the sky I got lost in the moment Of an ocean moonlight Miles from home And even farther from myself We all have gone through it We’re just afraid to ask for help And I know This is as far as I can go Without being far from you I guess that running away will only get you stuck And being bent out of shape digs you deeper in your luck You’ve got to live with whatever you got Staring down the barrel of your problems It’s the only way out Well the glistening waves are crashing They are the deepest blue You can see the ocean’s floor But it’s nothing without you We’ll sit back relax and keep a bottle by our sides And we’ll dream about the days when we’ll get this right

Life is just a collection of what we did And love is just a reminder of how we lived it And sometimes it’s better just to think What it’ll be like next year But we can’t one more day Waited for three weeks And responses were short I felt her touch and my instincts broke down My heads been brought lower Suppressed further than I hoped it would I’m not one for one night stands So let’s sit down and take this slow We’ll only burn ourselves out Before we leave this place Don’t feel like there’s something that needs to happen I’m a firm believer in whatever happens just happens She pushed me to the side She wanted to know about my life Well if you’ve five minutes I could give you the story And save you the explanations Seconds are slowly wasting And every minute something changes She said “this place is dull” We need a place more dim and null Somewhere they’ll never hear our voices Somewhere they couldn’t hold back what I wanted to say I want to know what makes your knees shake The kind of things that makes your heart break I want to be the last thing you think of before you close your eyes I want to hint at your nerves until your body screams my name I want to be your last breathe, your finale I’ll keep a pen behind my ear To record our conversations And I’ll grab a letter To seal a moment like this And with my eyes open I couldn’t imagine anything like this But every time I blink it brings me closer to that bliss