i just ate some pizza and played ghost recon 2 on xbox live. doesnt get much better than this. except when you know you have to get a shower and go to work and spend money on gas and food and do laundry to go to a funeral tomorrow and you dont like your hair or the way you look anymore. except when you just want to get things over with because it's too goddamn hard to try and be happy all the time. and if you arent happy or satisfied why keep going? probably because you hope tomorrow might possibly bring an answer or shed some light on why youre here and what happens when you arent anymore. but you can only hold out hope for so long. hahahahaha what the hell did i just type END