i have this thinking where everything will happen at a latter date. that i can rest assured for the time being, because it will happen...soon. i've come to that 'soon' quite a bit and i can tell you, i can't remember what came before it, what my past expectations were for the present. i guess i am glad for the changes in plans, my head, my heart and thoughts. but at the same time, what if my current hopes (that i--hold dearly?) are forgotten just as easily as they have been now? is anything really lost? i guess not if i refer to my hopes as "current", i mean, it just sounds like a trend then right? i think right now (at this very minute and for a few minutes or hours or days onward) i'm attempting to be something i watch constantly on tv. it's getting a bit ridiculous. i just sound stupid and wear jewelery that i lose and get in fights with my boyfriend/lover/love/friend/tobias. i'm just going to ride my bike more. lovellen.