i'm wondering if things have gotten better and as a result i have gotten better. i know it's not good to wonder about those sort of things, but to wonder if there's hope. i read on a juice bottle that whatever you may do is insignificant, but it is important that you do it anyways. i never post comments for songs anymore because it just seemed lame. that's not an entirely good reason, but i don't do it because what difference will it make? i want it to make a difference but no one's really going to notice because they're to busy making themselves getting noticed? this sort of thinking turns into laziness and pretty soon you won't be doing anything. i've been having forced conversations in order to make things seem "normal". i stare at pictures and i want to have that life. to be able to know such captivating people and capture them in that right moment. to be caught in moments where there are simple smiles and happiness is floating. one day.

it's love you love you baby. i want to have it bad for someone. and we'd spend the afternoons walking through the roads.