Well, got home from Cleveland around 5:00 today. It's 7:15 right now. Last night was a lot of fun...While I only had one beer because I was so drugged up from having this damn flu, I still had a great time. I got so much beer spilled on me. But who cares, it was fun. jeff hooked up with val, one of JA's friends...bobby and I got to share a bed, and it was so nice. Just to have someone sleep beside me. It's an amazing feeling. Jeff drank the most of the 4 of us...mainly because Bobby, JA, and I hate beer. ICK! I didn't get any sleep last night...that bed was so hard. I wish I would've been sleeping with bobby on the floor like every other night. We had to sneak me into the dorm because girls aren't allowed in guys rooms after 2:00 am. Too bad the RA's were never in the lobby or anything so we didn't really have to sneak. Jeff and JA brought me back into the building...I had to walk behind the two of them...we got to the corner and they both leaned around the corner, as far as they could then ran down the hall...it's hard to keep up with those two! oh but how I love my boys! Anyway...we had lunch/breakfast this morning at some mexican place. it was pretty good...I would've enjoyed it more if I weren't so sick! That's about the end of the trip...not what I was hoping it would be, but it was great to get out of town and be with my boys!!!! No matter how nice it is to get out of town, it's always nice to come back home. I'm going out with Bobby tonight. I'll post again soon. :) Me

Today is JA's 21st Birthday...oh how old my boys are getting. It's just not fair at all. But...I don't mind because we're going to visit him in Cleveland tomorrow to celebrate his birfday! YAY!!!!! Too bad I got the flu :/ Oh well, I'll just get drunk faster. I'm really excited though...and not worried because I know I'm gonna be safe. Bobby and JA wouldn't let anything happen to me, and I'm sure Jeff wouldn't either. I saw Sara T and Tyson today on my way to the mall, it was a happy occassion! Then I got to the mall, and there was Sara, in The BonTon. It was fun...she took me out to walmart, where this old guy got in the "speedy checkout" and had like 8 million items. Gah! Then he did add matching. Double Gah!! I got angry, but it was okay...I talked to a nice southern man and that was entertaining enough. then I got on the bus and came home...here I am, waiting for bobby to come get me...maybe I should take some medicine with me... We leave at 1:00 tomorrow afternoon. I can't WAIT to get out of here. Anyway, he should be here in like 2 minutes. I'll tell you all about Cleveland when I get home. Have a nice night ya'll

So we had our departmental at Zion on Thursday...I walked over with Brittany, Corey, Jess, and Teresa because the first 3 didn't know where the church was. So Corey talked continuously, like she always does and I kept kicking myself and telling myself I was stupid. Brittany chimed in and said "you must've done something really bad if God is punishing you like this" and I was like "uhhh...yeah." ARG! STUPID AUDRA AND TELLING BRITTANY SHIT...and stupid brittany for saying something like that. that's BULL SHIT. what did I do that was so bad? all I did was tell the TRUTH! so ha...F*** YOU AUDRA! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO DID SOMETHING WRONG!!!!

Sooo...the other night bobby and I were at bernie's and we were messin' around and stuff and well...after a while, things got really hot and heavy...but we didn't actually have sex...we can't. I'm just toooooo afraid of something happening Anyway, after that we were cuddling and stuff and I finally told him how I feel about him. I whispered "I Love You" in his ear and he said "I Love You Too." I was worried I would scare him, but I guess I didn't. And I really do love him. It hasn't been 4 months yet and I know that I mean it....I've never felt this way about anyone, and I know it's going to be a long time before I ever do again. I know that sounds weird...we've only been together for 4 months and I love him, but we spend every free minute we have with one another. So while that might seem a little premature to a few, I'm ready for it. Anyway...that's enough of my blathering today. It's time to get ready for work... countdown to my birthday: 6 DAYS!

When Aaron Tippen comes back after being reviewed add "where the stars and stripes and the eagles fly." Well if you ask me where I come from Here's what I tell everyone I was born by God's dear grace In an extra-ordinary place Where the stars and stripes and the eagle fly... It's a big old land with countless dreams. Happiness ain't out of reach Hard work pays off the way it should Yea, I've seen enough to know that we got it good Where the stars and stripes and the eagle fly... There's a lady that stands in a harbor for what we believe And there's a bell that still echoes the price that it cost to be free I pledge allegiance to the flag And if that bothers you, well that's too bad But if you've got pride, and you're proud to do Hey, we can use more like me and you Where the stars and stripes and the eagle fly... Yes, There's a lady that stands in a harbor for what we believe And there's a bell that still echoes the price that it cost to be free No, it ain't the only place on earth It's the only place that I prefer To love my wife and raise my kids (Hey) The same way my daddy did Where the stars and stripes and the eagle fly... Where the stars and stripes and the eagle fly... AND Lyrics for "HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN?" I hear people saying we don't need this war I say there's some things worth fighting for What about our freedom and this piece of ground We didn't get to keep 'em by backing down Now they say we don't realize the mess we're getting in Before you start your preaching let me ask you this my friend Have you forgotten how it felt that day? To see your homeland under fire And her people blown away Have you forgotten when those towers fell? We had neighbors still inside going thru a living hell And you say we shouldn't worry 'bout bin Laden Have you forgotten? They took all the footage off my T.V. Said it's too disturbing for you and me It'll just breed anger that's what the experts say If it was up to me I'd show it everyday Some say this country's just out looking for a fight Well after 9/11 man I'd have to say that's right Have you forgotten how it felt that day? To see your homeland under fire And her people blown away Have you forgotten when those towers fell? We had neighbors still inside going thru a living hell And you say we shouldn't worry 'bout bin Laden Have you forgotten? Now I've been there with the soldiers Who've gone away to war And you can bet that they remember Just what they're fightin' for Have you forgotten all the people killed? Some went down like heros in that Pennsylvania field Have you forgotten about our Pentagon? And all the loved ones that we lost and those left to carry on Don't you tell me not to worry about bin Laden Have you forgotten? Have you forgotten how it felt that day? To see your homeland under fire And her people blown away Have you forgotten when those towers fell? We had neighbors still inside going thru a living hell And you say we shouldn't worry 'bout bin Laden Have you forgotten? Have you forgotten? Have you forgotten?

I find it amazing that audra and I are no longer friends at all. Yes, I was the one that told steph what she and jim did, but hey...audra's the one that did it with jim...so she should be the one that everyone should be upset with. Why should she be mad if all I did was tell the truth. No good, dirty, cheating wench!!!!! On another note...Bobby *sigh* I never thought I could care about anyone as much as I care about him. He makes me happier than anyone in the world. I actually feel like I have a place in the world now. He treats me like a human...and no guy has ever done that. I know that we'll stay together for a really long time. I'm looking forward to the beach so much. I love his family...and I *muffled* him too! I'm so afraid to say it though...I don't want to scare him, and it seems so soon. Maybe I should wait until he says it to say it...then I know I'll really mean it. I should go...I've got a paper to write, and an orchestra rehearsal to go to. HAVE A GREAT DAY YA'LL!

*sigh* I'm soooooooo glad this site is up and running again. It's so much better than all of those crappy lyric search engines that don't have diddly squat. And it's so much more than just a search engine. Ohhhh...I like this new Diamond Rio song...what'd they say it was called??? Maybe it's "I Believe" I think I'll buy this cd after I get paid next week...as long as "Beautiful Mess" is on it too. Ummm...anyway, I think it's shower time. I have to work today and go see dr. cook. *drool* Have a wonderful day everyone...I'll be in a much better mood come sunday, I promise - Bobby will be back :D Ciao babies

Well, last night was a lot of fun...Audra and I went out to blue spruce and had dinner...then we came back here and watched a movie. Before we got the movies, we went to audra's house and her mom bought us zima...to sort of drown our (my) sorrows. The whole reason we went out really, was because casey told me that there isn't, and won't ever be anything between us. OUCH! I mean, he pretty much beat it into me...I was crying and just kind of totally shocked because I thought there was something good going on between us. I guess I just look into things too much. Anyway...so we went out to eat...and then came back here after my dad was gone with the Zima...audra and I each had 3 bottles of it, and we were pretty toasted....it was a lot of fun though...ben's really mad at me now because apparently I told him I would "never do that" but I know I didn't...I said I don't want to be like dad...I just needed to let loose a little bit last night. I felt like crap. I hate stupid boys. OKay...so now I'm feeling like crap all over again. I need to shower so I can go to work. More on my feeling like crapness later!

Long, bad night at work. I don't think Abby likes me, and when she and Janet are together I feel worse. I just feel like they both seclude me from everything. And then, that guy called and said I short changed him...but he called an hour and a half later...you think he would've realized it then? OH well...then I came home and flipped on Ben, not on purpose though...then I cried. Feeling like crap. I miss Casey...Damn boys...stupid steph and jim broke up on saturday (21st) they got back together on wednesday (26th) Steph said it was a "test" to see how long she could go without him. Right...she just broke her promise with God, as I see it. She said the whole reason for breaking up with him was because she wanted to strengthen her relationship with God and JIm was in the way...whatever...get back together 5 days later and tell me that that was a test. BULL! Ugh...I hate people. oh well

So I talked to Casey last night...it seems all he ever wants is for me to go to his place, get drunk with him and have sex. Granted, it would be fun, it's just not me. I like Casey so much, but I don't want anything to happen too fast. I want to spend some time with him, but I don't want it to be all physical. oh well...enough of that. Working today, don't want to. I have to go deal with all the crap that's been going on between diana and I. I just feel like she thinks our friendship is something that can be pushed to the side and I'll be there at her every whim. I'm not going to do it anymore, I can't take it. Either she grows up and realizes that I'm not her door mat, or I'm calling it quits.