I think I have matured. Priorities are set, but I just need the means. I have rid myself of that hideous want of a signifigant other. Although I'm certain it will come up again. My mind's expanding. New ideas are mandatory for my brain. Read Read Read Write. 3x reading for one writing. 3 books for one essay. 3 anthologies for one novel. Of course for poetry, it's more like 20x. 20 poems for one. 3x short stories for one. My painting and drawing skills are better. I can better tolerate. but I know my limits. and I am willing to act on them if they are severe enough.