I WANT TO STOP. i don't want to keep living a dream. anything I do, I am thinking about what could be. I can't stop. I want to. my daydreams never become reality. this is not amelie. only 2 scenes are mine a disappointment in the self and daydreaming about things that could've been. why can't I stop? I need help. where is jessica or i could ask michelle i need to go to linden oaks. at least there they might help. fuckkkk it all